Exchange student ~ Louis Partridge

Twenty one

"So your doing alright your moms still a bad bitch?" Maddie said stuffing a chocolate dipped pretzel into her mouth. making all of our friends around the table laugh .

It's been about a week since the whole phone call thing with my dad and mom.

" mom is doing a little ruff. I'm alright I'm just worried about the twins they were super excited because for this birthday they were supposed to go to Disney land.. and it's on Sunday"

"That gives you guys like 3 days it's Thursday." Finn said grabbed a pretzel from madds bag of treat.

"Yea I don't think mom with have the stability to go to a place like Disneyland that soon she is a little bit of a mess she just got cheated on, she hasn't left bed unless it's to throw dads shit in boxes."

"What if.. and this is just a suggestion. What if you and I take them? It's the least I can do your mom is an amazing woman who allowed my to stay in your lovely home. And your siblings love me."

Louis smirked with the last sentence indicating his joke.

I layer my head on his shoulder "I don't know what I would do without you."

Maddie smiled at us then tilted her bag of snacks towards Eli.
"Get off your phone I'm offering you food idiot." She joked

"Yea yea thank you" he took a pretzel. "My friend didn't show up at school today so I was just texting him to make sure he's alright not sick or anything."

"Jaeden is fine he's probably just ditching." Finn said quietly but we all still heard.

"What's with you? He missed because he has a cold."
Eli raised his voice a bit

"Bullshit." Finn said under his breathe we all heard but it was quiet enough we just let it pass

The rest of lunch was sorta just awkward.

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"Could I use the restroom?" The teacher nodded and I walked to the bathroom

I finished up and washed my hands looking into the mirror I messed with my hair.

Why is my hair like that. This outfit makes me look fat. My family is broken. My shoulders are to bulky.

My thoughts just seem to get louder and more and more rush in all negative. I feel tears roll down my cheeks. It slowly faded from tearing up to streams of tears pouring down my face.

I managed to stay silent while crying my mascara was now running and my eyes were red. I sniffed the last of my tears in. I grabbed a paper towel and cleaned my face until there was no mascara runs or tear marks.

I look in the mirror and force a smile my lips quiver a little I take a deep breathe in then out. Come on your tuff just act fine the day is almost over.

I walk out of the bathroom back to the class room and take my spot by Louis. The whole class just thought it was a restroom break. Good.

"You seem tense what's wrong y/n." Louis gently whispers.
"Nothing I'm fine shhh."

"No your not your eyes are slightly red you won't look at me and you seem tense."

"Louis just leave me alone ok?!" I whisper yelled. Staying quiet but my tone was more aggressive and loud. I didn't mean to be rude to him I just don't want to be questioned about it right now

*****

"I'm going out to the gas station or like a drive does anyone need or want any snacks?" I yell I heard ash yell for m&m's and no other words. Louis came speed walking from his room.

"Can I come?" He asked excitedly his face beaming a smile.

"I kind of just want to be alone right now." I turn to open the front door.

I instantly saw his expression drop then an extremely small smile stamp onto his face "oh I'm ok I get it bye have a nice time." He pecks me on the check and walked away.

****

The music was sort of loud but I didn't care I was in the more for it to be loud

"Dollhouse" by Melanie Martinez was on.

"Everyone thinks that we're perfect please don't let them look through the curtains. Picture, picture, smile for the picture."

I sing along to these lyrics I feel a tear roll down my face as i pull up to the gas station. Oh how lucky it's raining.

Don't get me wrong I love the rain so much but I don't have an umbrella or anything. Screw that I don't even care rain is fun.

I walked in to pay for gas while also grabbing a pack of m&ms for ashlynn.

"I can see by the mud you just dragged in that it stared to rain." He looked annoyed.

I grabbed my stuff and left I just started driving. The song on now was "Prom Queen" by beach bunny

Music really wants to prove a point here.

"Shut up, count your calories. I never looked good in mom jeans. Wish I was like you blue-eyed blonde perfect body."

I stopped the car at a random parking lot with a field of grass next to it. The music was just reminding me of how insecure I am. And I can't get my mind off how shitty it is at home.

I just keep reminding myself people have it worse then you. You aren't the only one dealing with things your fine.

But i am not fine.

I lay in the middle of the empty parking lot letting the rain harshly pour onto me tears streaming from my blood shot eyes. I sit up and hug my knees. I then stood up and screamed.

I screamed as if my life depended on it. I screamed at all my anger towards my dad. I screamed at all my sadness and pain of insecurities. I scream at life. Everything I've had balled up inside of my.

I then payed flat out arms and legs spread like a star. And cried I needed this.

***

I walked in the door to see Louis watching TV in the living room.

"Shit y/n your soaked."

"I know" I tossed him the m&ms and said "for ash" and walked right up the stairs.

I shut my door changed my clothes into a big oversized jumper. shorts so small that they couldn't even be called shorts, and tied my hair back into a pony.

I fell right asleep.

AUTHOR: I know this is short and all I'm sorry. Also

I want you all to know you are absolutely perfect in every way if you haven't already go eat so food and drink some water you got this<3!!
(Anything said in this chapter ex. Stuff y/n was insecure about SHE is just insecure about them you guys shouldn't be insecure about anything because you are absolutely utterly perfect darling