Untold Love

Chapter 3: Madder than the Mad Hatter

(Apple's POV)

It has been a week after I encountered Daring and Rosabella kissing and it's now Monday. I have been skipping classes and I know that it's irresponsible of me, but I have just been so stressed and I can't stop but lay on my bed and cry. My mother has called me, but thankfully Raven has helped me out on distracting my mom from talking to me. Of course Raven and Briar got worried and tried to cheer me up by getting me to hang out with them, but it's already embarrassing having my friends seeing me like this, I don't want others to see me all stressed. My mother always told me to look perfect and never let others see my imperfections, and I have already failed at that. I promised my mother that I wouldn't fail her, but here I am, a sad, disappointing mess. All this stress is making my head hurt and it feels like I'm going crazy. I can't stop thinking of all the scenarios that will happen the moment my mother knows about this. I swear if anyone even says hi to me I will break down-

"Good morning Apple."

"ra-RAVEN!!"

"APPLE ARE YOU OK WHY ARE YOU CRYING." Raven ran to my side of the dorm and I could just barely spit any words out.

"Raven! *sob* I'm so tired I can't I CAN'T"

"Tired of what Apple? You haven't talked to me much since last week?"

*Sob* "I don't know I'm just scared *sob* I no longer have a destiny *sob* and when mother figures *sob* out that Daring left me *sob* she's going to be so disappointed on me and I don't know what she will do *sob*."

"Ok just try to breath in." I can barely breath with all the crying. My mother always told me that I was madder than the Mad Hatter himself every-time I would break down like this. Since I was little I never had a reason to be like this but this year has just brought the worst in me.

"Ok now breath out. Are you alright now?"

"Yeah I'm fine."

"Ok are you more calm now?"

"A little bit." I still can't control my thoughts. My head is being fluted with my mothers screams from my childhood. I feel my head spinning with all these thoughts in my head.

"Look Apple, are you scared of losing Daring, or losing your destiny and your mom's approval?"

"W-well of course I'm afraid of losing my destiny and mothers approval, does are the reasons of my very existence! My whole life's value dependents on me continuing my family's legacy and bring the next generation to life, and my idiotic self failed at it. I only had one purpose and I failed at it! But I-I'm also scared of losing Daring he's my Prince Charming after all!"

"Apple *sigh* look, I know that I can't force you to make a new destiny if you don't want too, but I feel like you actually don't want a destiny with Daring."

"WHAT MAKES YOU SAY THAT."

"Apple you literally always say 'We are not dating yet, but we have a whole future to fall in love!'."

"But that's true! Even if I'm not in love with him now, who says I won't in the future!"

"Apple be honest with yourself, have you ever felt attraction towards Daring or any of the boys in school?"

"N-no, not really."

"So doesn't that say something about your sexuality?"

"WHAT?! NO RAVEN WHAT ARE YOU SAYING!"

"Look I can't help you with your problems with your mom because those are your own personal issues, but I want to at least help you see the reality of stuff."