Anger Is A Girl's Best Friend(I Am Not Okay With This fanfic)

Apology

I laid on my bed, the minutes dragging by achingly slowly, and after what felt like eternity, the minutes turned into hours, the silence of my house deafening. I was a bit confused, given that there had never been that much fucking silence in my house before. Phil and Diane must have gotten black out drunk, and passed out somewhere, and I wished they hadn't, because the silence was eating away at me, making the loneliness all too real. It felt like I was living a nightmare, and that I was going to go back to school, and Syd and Stan would be there waiting for me, and that Syd and I would still be together, but the burning tears making their way down my face made me face reality; They hated me.. And that word, that horrible, painful word that my ex girlfriend had called me was making the pain even worse. How could she have stood there and said that to my face? Well, obviously because I had slandered her precious Dina's good name by telling the truth about her.

I groaned in annoyance as the first rays of sunshine flooded through my window, my whole body aching with exhaustion from staying up all night long, but who gave a fuck about sleep anyway? It wasn't like anyone cared about my health anymore, right? Maybe they'd get lucky, and I'd just suddenly fall over from exhaustion and die, and do them all a favor. I threw on a random Led Zeppelin tee and some black jeans, not really caring whether or not they were clean, then grabbed my backpack, slung it over my shoulder, and started the long walk of loneliness and shame to school, shoving my way through all the students in the halls, until I got to my locker. As if my day wasn't already horrible enough, my stupid locker refused to open, and I finally just had enough, and started crying, before running to the bathroom, locking myself inside a stall. It hurt, more than anything had since my parents were killed, and it was hard to even breathe through the waves of sadness drowning me.

I don't know how long I was in there, or how many girls heard me as they came and went to do their business, but I really couldn't care less. I didn't want to care about anything at all anymore, but I did care, way too much, about Syd, and Stan, and God, even though it made me sick, I even cared about Dina, because Syd cared about her. No matter how much they had hurt me, or in Stan's case, I had hurt them, I loved them, and it was killing me to not have them around to help keep the cold emptiness and pain away. I guess I must have been really distracted when I locked the stall, because it clearly wasn't locked all the way, as I found it yanked open, and saw Dina standing there. Instantly, panic set in, and I shrank back against the wall, wrapping my arms around myself, and prepared for the onslaught of verbal abuse I was likely about to get.

I guess I couldn't hear how frantic my breathing was, or feel how badly I was shaking, but Dina noticed, her face instantly filling with worry, which confused me. I heard her voice coming from what seemed to be miles away, saying, "Val? Valerie, breathe! You're going to pass out if you don't breathe!" I saw a hand shove her out of the way, before I saw a flash of fiery red hair, and then, I was pulled into warm, familiar arms, my body held close to the person's chest, and I felt warm fingers trying to brush my tears away. Syd's voice seemed to be far away too, as she said, "Val? Val, it's okay, we aren't gonna hurt you or anything, okay? Just breathe.. Please?" I couldn't focus, but I guess some part of my brain understood her words, as I sucked in a sharp breath, coughing hard, as my lungs burned. As the oxygen started returning to my brain, everything became clearer, and I shoved Syd off of me, looking down at the tile floor. "Don't touch me.. Go away and leave me the hell alone. Pick on someone else, okay? I just want to be left alone.. It doesn't matter if I pass out, or die, or anything."

Dina sighed, and she replied, "Look- Val, about all those things I said to you.. I shouldn't have said them, and I know apologizing won't help much, but I'm really sorry. I thought I was protecting my best friend, but all I did was hurt the person who cares more about her than I do." I felt shock flood through my body, then frowned, and looked up, suspicious, but couldn't tell, if she was actually bullshitting me. Syd came next, and awkwardly looked down, as she stepped a bit closer to me. "I should've believed you.. Dina told me what she said to you, and after all that, I went and said basically the same shit. And I called you a really bad thing.. I was having a bad day, and I took it out on you. I get it if you can't forgive me, or if you don't want to hang around me anymore, but I wanted to apologize, and to tell you that I told Dina about.. Us. I thought you deserved that, and I don't want to hide you away like some dirty little secret. You deserve better, and-" She sighed. "-And I love you, and I really miss you, and I want you to go to Homecoming with me."

I felt my heart nearly stop, and felt tears start sliding down my face again, and Syd's expression turned guilty and worried. "I'm sorry- What did I say? I didn't mean to make you more upset. Fuck, I always fuck this sort of stuff up.." I shook my head, and before she could say another word, tackled her with a hug, burying my face in her chest. "I forgive you.. And I miss you, too. I fucking miss you so much, even after just one night. And I love you, too.. Of course I'll go to Homecoming with you, Ginger Snap. What kind of dance would it be without us two crazy bitches there?" I heard her laugh, then felt her softly kiss the top of my head, which I wasn't used to. I mean, Syd had never shown emotion like that before really, except maybe to her little brother, but it felt nice to have someone care about me that way. Dina cleared her throat, and I blushed, awkwardly stepping back, and Syd frowned, looking me up and down, holding my hand. "Are you okay now? I mean, you sounded really bad earlier, and you look really tired. Maybe we should take you to the nurse.."

I shook my head, and sighed. "No, I'm fine.. I'm a lot better now that I have my girlfriend back, and that I get to go to Homecoming with you. You should get back to class, both of you. I don't want the teachers thinking I'm a bad influence on their promising young students." I cracked a tiny smile, so they knew I was joking, then rolled my eyes as they just stood there, before gently shoving them both out of the bathroom. "I mean it, go. I have to think about my outfit for tonight, and you two weirdos will distract me. I'll see you around seven thirty, okay, Syd? Just meet me outside your house, and if Dina wants to, we can all three walk together." They nodded, and then walked off, leaving me to plan a way to sneak out of the house in a dress without the homophobic dicks catching me, not knowing that all three of us, and Stan, were going to be having a not so fun time later that night...