Protecting You Is My Duety. { BOOK 1 }

My pages.

| December 21,3034. |

Is this the right thing to say to niki once she helped me cope with things.. well she tried to kill tommy and she still helps me, i know she feels sorry. But.. ugh. I'll probably read this later on.

So u future deo. Remember this. This is what u said to niki oki?.

" And when nobody wakes you up in the morning. And when nobody waits for you at night. And when you can do whatever you want. Do you call the freedom or loneliness?.. Now niki what is it."

Ugh. Read this u bastard. U upset niki.. u gotta say sorry.

- Edit: I said sorry.. i was such a bastard past deo..

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| December 27,2034. |

I want to vent. I just- i saw that horrible man again. I can't believe hes still alive. I hate him.

He-.. the world is full of monsters.. with friendly faces and angels full of scars.

F**king h*ll. What am i saying hes a person too- now why am i regretting- F**K! I hate my mind so much. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........................

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| January 13,2034 |

I read my dec 21 page.. i feel sorry for niki again. I hope she feels alright now.. were both teens/adults now and she acts like a mom. And i like that and sometimes i dont but..

Hurting someone's feeling is as easy as
Throwing a rock in a ocean, but do you know how deep that rock goes..?

I know. It goes deep beneath the bottom and you can't get it back. Because you already threw a lot.

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| Jan 24,2034 |

I always go visit tommy's grave and write on my diary(whenever i feel like to). But today is different and i knew i want to write it on this diary book i dont know.

I.. hm. I don't want to kill myself.. Or! Hurt myself.. i just wanna be with him until i feel okay.

Okay that's enough.

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:). Tbh i wanna do a face reveal or voice reveal but thats nonsense this days, anyways. U guys wanna ask me some questions- i'm ready to answer- lol.. this is awkward:]>>