Rag doll

Chaper 23

Michael sighed loudly as we pulled up to the front of the house we shared. He climbed out the car, walk round and opened my door for me.

We walked in silence to the door, he unlocked the grand door allowing me to walk in. "Thank you"
He simply nodded back to me, before closing the door behind me.

"I'm going back" Micheal spoke "They need me"

I waved good bye to Michael from the window next to the door as he drove away. I couldn't get the memory of Luke laying on the bathroom floor out of my mind still especially now I was alone.

I walked to my room to find something to change into. The blood on my clothes was now dry, it felt as if it was weighing me down. I opened the door to my walk in wardrobe, immediately pulling the blood stained clothes off my body.

I grabbed a hoodie throwing it over my head. As I turned to leave I saw a figure out of the corner of my eye. I jumped backward out of fright before seeing clearly it was Jesse.

I walked over and pulled her into my arms. I started to cry once more, surprising myself I had anymore tears left.

"Is he okay" Jesse asked her voice breaking as she spoke.

"They didn't tell me much, I don't know" I replied I wanted to say yes but I couldn't lie to her "Where is Calum" I asked.

"I don't know the police came after the ambulance left so I came straight here to hide, I think they left already but I couldn't leave. I feel safe here" She pulled back, breaking away from the hug "Is he going to live ?"

"I don't know" I repeated pulling away too. I felt awful she had been alone all this time.

She nodded a few time before bursting into a eruption of tears. "Did he" She started to ask struggling to get the words out "Did he do it"

I couldn't bring myself to tell her what I had seen. It was clear he had attempted to take his own life. I could see her desperately looking at me for answers.

"Yes" I replied unable to say anything more about it.

"It's all my fault, I should have woken up, I should've helped him" she cried throwing her hands in the air.

"It's not your fault" I said sternly, slowly moving my head side to side.

"I just want him to be okay" She laid her head down on my shoulder again "I shouldn't known. He was so full of guilt and shame, it was drowning him"

"He is going to be okay" I reassured her softly, rubbing her back soothing her "Ash will look after him"

"How do you know that ?" She sobbed, lifting her head again looking me in the eye.

"I don't" I whispered my voice cracking slightly. Jesse said nothing back.

Unable to continue discussing what had happened anymore I pull away from the hug "I need to shower I need to wash this off" I said referring to the blood.

I walked to the bathroom, Jesse followed behind me silently. I stood at the sink and looked down at my hands, I could still see blood under my nails.

I turned on the shower, grabbing a plastic bag from under the sink to wrap around my cast. Jesse turned to walk out

"Stay" I called "I don't want to be alone"

"I won't, I was just going to grab a towel" she smiled slightly, it was comforting.

After I had showered, Jesse and I laid together in the warmth of my bed in silence.

Calum came in and offered us both some tea and asked if we wanted anything to eat. We had both refused. He didn't ask about Luke clearly trying to keep busy and distract himself.