Rag doll

Chapter 12

The next morning I woke up did my normal routine of getting dressed, putting my makeup on, doing my hair, putting my bow and gloves on.

I looked at myself in the mirror once again. The more I looked the less I could comprehend that the girl looking back was me.

I still hasn't seen Beth, I guessed she was in her room maybe or with Michael. I luckily hadn't seen him either. This house was so big it was easy to hid away from everyone else.

Lucy spent the rest day with Calum yesterday in her room. I wanted to check in on her but I didn't think I could face her. It was easier to pretend everything was okay when I was alone.

I made breakfast all by my self again, I left two trays out for Michael and Calum and I put Ashton's and Luke's food on one tray and carried it to Ashton's room.

It felt like if I could keep myself busy I could make time go by faster. I couldn't give myself time to think, I couldn't face the reality.

This had never happened to me before, I had never been so stuck inside my own mind unable to escape in any way. Physically or mentally.

I knocked and waited to be told to come in, "You may enter" Ashton said in a awful British accent.

My hands trembled as I placed the tray on the bed. I wasn't angry at them, I couldn't feel anything.

"Is this all for me ?" Ashton asked looking at the tray in front of him.

"No half is for Luke, I can't carry two tray and I thought it would be better. I don't know I'm sorry" I sighed thinking I had done something wrong. I had simply put the food together without thinking.

"Why are you apologizing it's fine, thank you" Ashton moved the tray closer to him as he sat up. "Me and Luke need to get some business done today. We're going to talk to Michael and Calum and sort this out"

I started to think about what that could entail, I couldn't find the words to describe the things I imagined in my mind. Would the rest of us be safe.

"I need clothes. You know what to get and can you get Luke some clothes too" Ashton said climbing out his bed walking to his bathroom to have a shower. "Luke thinks he is all punk rock so he will want all black"

"Shut up and go wash" Luke rolled his eyes, "Can you get me some black jeans. Grab any top and just a hoodie if its cold outside. Wait you can't check the weather, grab me a hoodie anyway. My wardrobe is super simple you'll find everything"

I walked into Ashton's wardrobe and found him some clothes, I laid them on a chair where I normally put them. I couldn't find any words to say to Luke so I simply walked out and went to Luke's room to find him clothes

After a few minutes I finally found what I needed and took them back to Ashton's room. His wardrobe was anything but simple.

As I stood in Lukes room I thought about Poppy and how she should be here not me. I tried to push those thoughts out my mind.

Ashton was still in the shower and Luke was still eating on the bed, I laid out Luke's clothes next to Ashton's on chair.

"Want some ?" Luke asked waving a pancake in the air.

"No thank you" I replied tidying Ashton's room up, finding sweet wrappers left from yesterday.

"You never eat" Luke muttered stuffing his face "You should you're to thin, that dress is becoming too big for you and I swear it did when you got here"

"It was always too big" I lied. I felt uncomfortable, I couldn't really explain that it's hard to build up an appetite when you've been abducted and kept as a slave.