Today, down the road, I'm trying to guess what the clouds will look like that day. Sometimes it's like bread, sometimes it's like cotton, but how come it never looks like a cat in my head. A low voice broke my reverie, 'Meow.'
In the ditch near your house I saw a little cat in it. His eyes were closed. His body is frail, he will definitely die if I leave.
'Uh, cat. What is wrong with you?' I said to the cat.
I also don't know why I asked this cat in Indonesian. If this cat can answer, 'It's okay, sweetie.' I'll definitely make my own Youtube channel, asking this magical cat to vlog.
The frail cat was shaking, trying to walk, like jelly in broad daylight. Then he lay down, weak. I took him home, wrapped him in a change of clothes in a bag, I said to the cat, 'From today your name is Awan.'
Honestly, I don't like cats. I think they are selfish creatures who look arrogant. People say funny, but I think their views are too cold. It was as if they had something sinister planned every day. As if they felt better than humans.
But I learned to love Awan, because I'm sure there's something arranged our meeting that day. Slowly, I learned about cats. Awan likes to purr loudly when stroked, at first I was confused, until I had to ask a friend who keeps a cat, 'Eh, this is my cat, why is my cat growling so loudly. He wants to kill me what do you do?' 'No,' said my friend. 'A cat if it purrs means it loves you.'
'What a strange way of showing affection,' I said.
'Well, if there was a cat that suddenly could kiss the cheek, it would be even weirder,' said my friend.
You've been missing for a year, but I still like to read our chat history on my cellphone. Awan sat on my lap, watching line after line of our chat reply to each other. That night I was reading your chat with me, about you reminding me not to eat instant noodles too often at night to which I replied 'okay', and then you asked, 'is it okay?' then I go on 'okay baby.' and you reply 'good.' Then I replied, 'Is it good?' and you say, 'that's great honey.' How trivial things like this can make me miss it so hard to sleep.
