seduce and destroy

theres things that we'll never know

Harrys POV:

i looked from the corner of my eye as she sat in Nialls lap, laughing with some sexy dumbasses he found at a fucking coffee shop. it made me sick seeing how happy they were. how happy all of these little fucks were. they didn't understand the complexities of my life. they didn't understand my heartbreak, they never would.

except for emery.

emery sees my pain, she feels my pain. she understands. she'll be there for me, no matter how much shit i put her through because she loves me.

god, what a fool i am.

what a fool i am thinking that things will work out. how could things possibly work for us? how would i be able to get out of this one? when she finds out the truth, she'll be devastated. we won't get a little house by the prairie with a cat named tobias, i'll never be able to plant tomatoes while our three triplets run around in the field. i wont get that.

but i want her to.

for once, i'm not going to be selfish. because i love her more than anything, and if anything happens, i want to make sure the only thing that gets hurt in this is me.

i have to lose her. that was our destiny. that was our fate all along.

my eyes follow as she struts past me, walking over to the bathroom. she smells really bad, but besides that, i could tell she's mad. why wouldn't she be, i was an ass to her. it's just better to push her away, because i learned from a young age to not get too attached because it will only lead to heartbreak💔

fuck.

"hey, buddy." louis sits next to me, a beer in his hand.

louis was the first to find me when i was 16 years old, working as an escort on the street. he helped me get off my ass, he gave me a home, he let me meet the boys. i actually used to have a soft spot for him, but after everything that we've all been through, i couldn't help but resent him for it. if i'd never have met him, none of this would be happening.

i still felt comfort towards him, though. he was the first person who was ever there for me.

"buddy?" i snicker, looking at the little fuck.

"zayn told me you and emery fucked."

"GOD FUCKING DAMNIT!" i stand up, doing a 360 spin, breaking the glass beer bottle from Louis' hand with nothing but my teeth. it took a while. "how does that beautiful majestic son of a bitch know about me and emery and why did he tell your rat ass!?"

"my ass is huge af, and he knows you guys fucked because zayn malik knows all. you also left a bunch of hickeys on her neck. you're lucky niall is a dumb fuck who thinks that she actually fell on her neck." louis chuckled to himself.

"...i think i love her."

"you don't, harry. you think you do, but you don't." louis fixed his hair, sighing. "you're fucked, man. you've always been. you cant get out of this one."

"i can! i have a plan."

"it won't work, harry. it's too late. simon is right, you have to..."

"shut the fuck up!" i stand up, pushing his shoulder in frustration. "you're supposed to be my friend!"

"we haven't been friends for years, harry. you're an asshole."

fuck.

"fuck you." i start walking away.

he doesn't go after me.

i want to punch a wall.

i want to go back to that bed with me and emery. i want to hold her hand.

but deep down, i know he's right. i'm too brocken💔 and there's only one thing i can do to make sure she's safe, and it'll be hard, but some mistakes are made that's alright that's ok you can think that you're in love when you're really just in pain.

that was a run on sentence💔

ugh, i'm so fucking tired of being a sappy little fuck. i need to let go of emery and forget that night ever happened so she won't be hurt. once the deed is done, she can go live a happy life with niall and those two randos that niall found at dunkin' donuts.