The DC heart ache

Atlantis

Meredith POV
I woke up at 8 the next morning remembering what happened the day before. It's hard to believe. My mind still isn't sure it's real. I lay thinking about Derek when my stomach starts to turn. I get up quick and run to the bathroom, puking right as I reach it. Callie must've heard me because she came to my side. "Woah are you okay?" She asked looking at me. "Uh yeah just think I have the flu. I haven't felt too good for the past week but it hasn't been too bad so I just haven't acknowledged it" I sighed. Callie laughed and said that she was leaving in 20 minutes to go to the hospital and asked if I was going to come. I said yes and got off of the ground to get ready, still not feeling the best. After I was dressed Callie and I got in the car and headed to the hospital. On the way, I started thinking about Derek and the last time we were actually happy. "You know, Derek and I haven't been happy together since like 3 weeks ago and that was because we were having sex so I mean of course but we weren't actually happy. I could've seen this coming I could've prevented this" I said hiding my face. "Meredith it's not your fault I promise, and don't beat yourself up you will get through this I know it" Callie said reassuringly "thank you" I smiled. "For what being a friend? I'm a good friend" Callie joked. "No thank you for letting me stay with you. I promise I will be out soon. And for being a good friend" I laughed. "You can stay as long as you need" Callie reminded. "So you think you have the flu? What are you symptoms?" Callie asked. "Nausea, uhm mood swings? Mostly nausea but that usually passes by noon but this has been going on for a while I don't know must be some immune thing" I said trying to think of all my symptoms. "Oh Uhm ok" Callie stammered. "What?" I asked. "I don't mean to jump to conclusions but all of those symptoms are pregnancy symptoms" She stated. "Oh" I said realizing. "I'm late" I panicked. "Late?" She wondered. "About 6 weeks, how haven't I noticed" I kept panicking. "Ohhh" Callie replied realizing. "This couldn't have happened at a worst time, when my husband kisses another women." I panicked starting to cry. "Mer calm down you don't even know if you're pregnant yet. When we get to the hospital you can take a test I'll guard the bathroom door and make sure no one goes in. It'll be ok" Callie reassured. "Ok, ok" I calmed down. We pulled into the hospital parking lot . I took a deep breath and got out of the car with Callie and we headed in. On the way in I was walking behind Callie, hoping to avoid Derek. I see Derek ahead and he tries to walk over to me but Callie stops him. "I think you should just leave her alone right now" Callie said. Derek shook his head and walked away. We put our stuff in the attending lounge and then I went to a supply closet to get a test. I grabbed the test and made my way to the bathroom while Callie guarded the door like she said she would. I took the test and washed my hands. The next 5 minutes were the longest of my life. Waiting for the results. When I finally saw the results I burst into tears and Callie entered the bathroom.  "Mer it's okay, you guys will get through this" Callie said patting my back. "I know, I think." I said wiping my tears. "Thank you Callie. I have to get to work" I said shoving the test in my pocket and leaving the room. After I scrubbed out of my first surgery I headed to the nurses station to do some charting. When I was done with the chart, Derek found me and pushed me into an on-call room. "Derek let me go I don't want to fight with you" I sighed trying to get out of the room. "Meredith the kiss wasn't meant. I missed you I was deprived of you and sleep. I thought she was you for a second. But when my lips touched hers I knew it wasn't you, her lips were dry and cold unlike yours. You turn my world, and I'm so sorry. You might not forgive me, and I understand that but I'm going to do whatever I can to get you to forgive me" he cried. "Can we talk later I have a surgery in 20 minutes?" I asked. "Yes, but you promise to talk later?" He asked. "Yes. I have to go" I said pushing out of the room when something falls out of my pocket. Just then I realize it's the positive pregnancy test I took this morning. I was getting ready to bend down and grab it, but Derek bent down faster. When he looks at it I watch his expression widen. "Mer you're pregnant?" He asked looking at the test. Without answering I burst into tears. Thanks hormones. "Meredith" he nudged. "Derek" I said. "Meredith" He said pulling me into a hug. I let him just hold me for a while. I love Derek. I can't not forgive him. Yes he hurt me, but I've don't fair amount of damage by destroying his Alzheimer's trial. And he says he didn't mean it so I believe him. "Meredith you're pregnant" He smiled. "I am" I sniffled wiping my tears trying to look like I didn't just get done crying. "I have surgery. I'm going to text you or call you tonight but I'm going to stay at Callies I need some time to process everything. Do you have the kids?" I asked "yes I will have the kids and it's ok to take some time, just please call me or text me please" He said handing me my pregnancy test and I put it back in my pocket and leave the room. I head up to the OR and start to scrub in. After the surgery is complete my shift is over and so is Callie so I carpool with her back to her place. "So I'm only staying at your place for tonight. And if Derek pisses me off again I'll just go to a hotel or something" I told Callie. "Don't pay for a hotel you let me stay with you when Arizona cheated and I don't have anybody at my house so you're just some company" Callie smiled. "So you and Derek talked?" She asked. "He forced me into the on-call room and apologized and told me what happened. I told him I had surgery so I'll text him or something later but I had to go and as I went to leave, The pregnancy test fell out of my pocket. He picked it up before I could get it and I started crying because I can't control these hormones and then he hugged me and I let him. And I decided that I love him, always will. And I can forgive him." I sighed. "So you just started crying" She laughed. "It's not funny it was actually really embarrassing" I chuckled. We got to Callies place and I went into the room  staying in and called Derek. "Hey" He said. "Hi" I replied shyly "Derek" I said feeling tears starting to form. "I love you. I can't live without you. I forgive you. I hate hating you, you're the love of my life" I cried. "Meredith thank you so much. I wish I was there to hold you and help you feel better" he said making me cry more. "I'm sorry it's the hormones" I said still crying. "Hey don't apologize, and I know this is a bad time but my mom and sisters are coming down next week for Baileys birthday party" he chuckled. "Ok. I'm tired and I just want to sleep." I sighed. "Ok goodnight" Derek whispered. "Goodnight. Love you" I said hesitating. "I love you too" he replied after that I hung up. Feeling relief that I can go home and be with him again.