Retaliation #Wattys2015

What Just happened? Clean version

I woke up the next morning happy but confused. I looked at Lexi who was sound asleep. She was the most beautiful creature I ever saw. Then the reality of the situation hit me. This was my ex-wife. The one who ended our marriage without a second thought. The one who said she would trust me but listened to all the shit that her family flung about me. She was the mother of my son but she abandoned him and even though she loved him, she was never a permanant fixture in his life. I know she isn't a bad woman and she was decieved but I shouldn't have fucked her last night. I just complicated everything.

Three days earlier I told her we had no chance of getting together but I was willing to forgive her for Charlie's sake and now I made love to her in my bed...WITHOUT A CONDOM! OH SHIT!

She could get pregnant again and eventhough I would adore more kids it would complicate everything. I never thought about it since Lexi and I were married the first time we had sex and she never took birth control since it could lead to bloodclots for her as well as sterilization. Also we believed that married couples didn't have to bother with condoms so we never used them. The weight of everything started sinking me.

I had unprotected sex with my ex wife last night after telling  her I couldn't be with her. I always hated playing games with people. I prided myself on being upfront and honest but I really dropped the ball here. Without any thought I got up and went to the bathroom and turned on the shower. I stood there for a minute before I heard the door open and Lexi slipped in with me. I turned around to face her. She wrapped her arms around my neck and snuggled into my chest. As angry as I was with myself , I couldn't be a dick to her and send her away.  We had to to talk about this but for now I felt happy she was with me.  Before the divorce, the shower was "our" place. It was where we enjoyed each other's company. We would wash each other, kiss, and gossip about things our neighbors did, or what Lexi's staff were up to, you know  things like that.

After we washed up I gave Lexi one of my shirts to wear and went next door to get Charlie. He was pleased to see me but he had just woken up and was a tad cranky. I thanked Ms. Danvers and went back to my apartment where Lexi took Charlie so I could get breakfast.  We all ate together for the first time. It felt good to be a proper family but I was dreading the talk I would have with Lexi and I knew she wouldn't be happy about it but the rules had to be established.

Lexi put Charlie in his room and left him to play with his toys.  When she left his room she looked at me and i beckoned her over to the living room for a chat. She glanced at me uncertainly. She knew what was coming.

"We need to talk about last night." I told her.

She nodded and said the words that surprised me. "I'm so sorry."

"Ethan, I came over to talk to you again about you forgiving me and marrying me again but I saw you and Denise talking and I thought then and there that I lost you. Then I saw Denise slap you and my blood caught fire when I saw another woman touch you. When I hit her it wasn't to establish dominance over you bu because I couldn't keep my anger in check. When we got to the apartment, the anger and jealousy boiled over and I needed you. I know that you are having a hard time trying to forgive me and I know that last night complicates things even more. I want to write it off as a mistake but I can't .I always dream about us making love and how perfect it is with you and when we were together last night, it felt happy for the first itme in awhile." she sighed.

I collected my thoughts, and organized them before speaking. There couldn't be any misunderstandings here.

"Lex, last night was amazing. I haven't been with a woman since we divorced and I can't begin to tell you how happy I was to wake up next to you. But this can't happen ever again". She looked so hurt when I said that but I had to keep going. " I love you so much it hurts.When you divorced me I nearly died. If it wasn't for Charlie, I would have gotten drunk and blown my head apart.  You said that you trusted me and respected me. Where was that when your parents made Denise lie about me? You love our son but you walked away from him because you thought I fucked another woman and it hurt you to look at him?  Peter called him scum and told you to abort him when you were carrying him and you never stood up to him and told him never to speak to or about our son like that. "

"Ethan..."  Lexi spoke but I kept going.

"Your parents always talked down to me and treated me like trash because I had nothing.  You never stood up for me and I endured it because I love you. But this is what broke me. You knowing those people had it out for me and you still believed them over me. That I was the bad guy, that I only wanted you for the money and prestige. I had no idea who you were when I saw you at the club, and even when i found out it changed nothing. I knew from the beginning that I would never be rich and I was fine with that. You knew that and you bought Peter's lies anyway."

Lexi sat there shaking, trying not to cry but she couldn't hold it in. It was almost as if my words were causing her physical pain. I had to finish this before my resolve broke.

"I'm sorry if I lead you on. I'm sorry if I gave you hope where there was none to be had. I'm sorry to say this to you but you and I were done when you had me sign those papers. I love you and there is no one else for me but you and I are finished." I forced it out. 

Lexi sat there and looked so broken and dispirited I felt horrid. But I also knew this is how it has to be.  She stood up and walked to the door and she left with out a word. I went to lok the door when I heard her sobbing on the other side of the door. I walked away when I heard a knock. She must have forgotten something. I opened it and she stood there still crying but composed.

"I'm sorry too Ethan. I'm sorry i left you and Charlie. I'm sorry I let my family's lies and plans ruin our marriage and family. I'm sorry that I was too weak and insecure to fight for us. And I'm sorry but I am not leaving." she declared.

"I gave up once and it cost me everything that held any meaning to me. I lost you, Charlie, my self-respect, and just my ability to be happy. I won't give up now. I will be your wife again. I will be a mother that Charlie deserves. I will be a woman that stands by her man no matter what. I will get you two back even if it costs me my life." she ground out. She glared at me daring me to challenge her.

I was at a loss for words. All I could say was " It's Charlies birthday next weekend. You should come over. We would love to see you."

She nodded her head and gave me a quick kiss on the lips. "I love you Ethan." before walking off.

I closed the door and realized that she wasn't going away. What just happened?

(If you want the dirty version, you gotta be following me apparantly)