Love Me Not (Park Rosé x femreader)

Chapter 8

Chapter 8: The truth
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Rosé didn't know why she took y/n to her mother's home instead of their dorm. She admit, panic got the best of her and she couldn't think straight after.

Who wouldn't even panic when someone just fainted beside you, right?

Unless, you don't give a fuck about that person.

As the middle-aged woman saw her daughter's state, she remained calm and asked Rosé to place her inside her bedroom. The aussie sat beside the unconscious girl, wondering why she fainted.

'From stress maybe?' She thought.

A moment after, y/n's mom came inside with a vial and syringe in hand. She pour its content on the syringe before injecting it on y/n's right arm.

Rosé watched the whole process with curiosity. "What's that for, Mrs. Kim?"

"It's not my place to tell, dear. But I would like to thank you for bringing her here to me"

"No problem"

"Oh and one thing, it would be cool if what happened to y/n stays between us. It's best if her sister doesn't know about it"

"You have my word, Mrs. Kim"

"And Rosè?"

"Yes?"

"Can you stay with my daughter for the night?"

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Morning came and y/n was surprised to see a chipmunk sleeping peacefully beside her.

She smiled at the sight.

Eventually, the two took a shower separately and got ready. They were about to leave when y/n's mother invited them for breakfast.

"Mom, it's fine. Besides, her fellow members might be looking for her by now"

"Nonesense, I called Jisoo last night. Now, come here you two and eat with me"

Over the course of breakfast, y/n and her mom acted as if nothing happened last night. To which Rosé finds it utterly suspicious. She knows something's going on and she's dying of curiosity.

Oh how badly she wanted to ask y/n.

With their stomachs satisfied, Rosé called her manager to fetch them and take them back to their dorm. You know, to avoid being swarmed by fans and paparazzis.

And as they reach their dorm, Jisoo greeted them with a not-so-happy look.

"Unnie—" Y/n's head whipped to the side as she recieved a sharp slap from the one and only.

Tears arises instantly.

Rosé was about to fight back and defend her. But, y/n stops her.

"I'm so disappointed in you, y/n. I didn't let you stay just so you can fuck up someone's life! I gave my blessing to your relationship with Jennie because I know you aren't the type to hurt someone!"

"But I guess, people do change" Jisoo chuckles bitterly.

"How can you bear hurting someone who loved you, huh? First, you broke up with her, told her you don't love her anymore, then left her crying as she pleads for you to stay. She's already stressed with all the hates she keeps on receiving, and there's you who still added fuel to the fire! How heartless can you be?! Tell me, did you enjoy watching Jennie beg and suffer?"

Y/n kept quiet.

"I shouldn't have let you stay here in the first place—"

"Jisoo!" Rosé intervenes, but y/n stops her again.

"It's fine, Rosie" She assures the aussie with a smile before turning to her unnie.

"I'll go" She whispers. "I'll pack my things tomorrow and leave"

With that, y/n ran inside her room with Rosé following behind. Immediately, the younger knelt beside her luggage and rummage the inside. The aussie watches as y/n pulls out a white bottle and pop a pill inside her mouth, swallowing it without water.

"Y/n, I don't want to stay oblivious. Please tell me what's going on"

"I don't know...."

"Why didn't you fight back and defended yourself? You could've told Jisoo that Jennie cheated on you"

The younger sighs. "Fine, I'll fill you in with the details. But promise me, you'll tell no one"

"Promise"

They then sat on the bed.

"As you know, Jisoo and I were apart for almost eight years. It is the reason why I flew from New York and live with her in this dorm. But, the real reason why I did all of those is because I wanted to spend my remaining days with her"

"Remaining days?!" Rosé exclaims, but the younger was quick to cover her mouth and shush her.

"I have CAD or Coronary Artery Disease. It's in stage 4 already, and undergoing surgery would only shorten my life span more. I tried keeping my illness from you all because I promised not to be a burden, wanted to be treated as normal, and I don't want to worry any of you. During my stay here, I fainted more than five times and had heart attack twice. Remember when you came home and found me with a guy?"

The aussie nodded.

"He's name is Justin and he's my personal heart doctor. I called him in because I was having a heart attack. He found me unconscious, and if he didn't come on time, I would've been dead by now. My monthly check ups became weekly after that. I usually sneak out a midnight to not raise any suspicions"

"How long can you still live?" Rosé was close to crying.

"Before I flew to Korea, my doctor said I only have a year or less to live. So to answer your question, maybe a few months more"

Tears finally bursts out. "But how can you be so calm?!"

"I already accepted my fate" y/n smiles sadly.

"Remember when I said I ended everything between Jennie and I, just so she can continue sailing without the worry of sinking?"

"I still don't get it" She sniffs.

"Whether I sink or not, my time has come and I'll eventually drown. Imagine if Jennie has loved me till my last days, what would happen? I will only hurt her more, and perhaps, there'd be a small probability she'll choose not to find someone else in the future. Therefore, I decided to jump from the boat so that she would not sink with me and can still sail towards a new one; a boat strong enough to pass through every storm"

"And I want you to do the same, Rosie" Y/n added.

"H-huh?"

"I want you to find someone else who can love you for eternity. I have been hurting you, for I am too blind and dense to notice your feelings for me. I don't deserve your love, Rosie. Even if I want to reciprocate it, I don't have much time to do so. And I'll end up hurting you more than I already have"

Y/n cups her cheek and gently wipes her tears. But, the aussie grabbed her wrist and said.

"I've witnessed you hurting for the past months, and that pains me too. All I wanted was to be the cause of your smile. Please allow me to make you happy for the last time"

With eyes close, Rosé leans in and kisses y/n in the most passionate and loving way.

"Let me love you till your last days, y/n-yah"

A death from a long illness is different from a sudden death. It gives you time to say goodbye and time to adjust to the idea that your beloved will not be with you anymore.

— Meghan ORourke