Fateful Fantasy

13 Connection

Immediately as I turned into my street, I saw that both cars were parked in front of my house. I sighed heavily as I parked the car and took my shopping bags out of the trunk. Actually, I didn't feel like seeing Adam and Kyle. I would have loved to get back in the car and drive away.

The mood between the three of us was so tense lately that just the thought of the two gave me a headache. But since I had to pee really badly, I had no other choice but to go in.

"There you are! Where have you been?" asked Kyle immediately, sounding a little accusing.

"Give me a second. I'll be right back." I replied as I set the bags aside and then quickly rushed into the bathroom.

"So where were you, Y/N?" asked Kyle again.

"I was shopping with Carmen and Aaliyah. What's your problem, Kyle?" I replied.

"Can't you let us know? Is that so hard to at least let one of us know where you are?" he shot back.

"Why should I? It's not like you're telling me about your every move. You guys just march in and out of here as you please. And none of you tell me what you're up to or where you've been. So why should I?" I spoke, my tone becoming more and more aggressive.

"It's not the same thing, Y/N." said Adam.

"Why not? This is still my house and my life. Can't I do what I want with it? You have no idea what's going on inside me. And I certainly don't have to answer to you," I said loudly.

"How are we supposed to know what's going on with you if you barely talk to us? Is it so bad that we're worried about you and the babies?" Adam replied.

"No, of course not. It's just... my whole life has totally changed in the last six months. And it's going to change even more when the twins are born. I'm trying to figure out what I'm going to do next. Because not only do I have a heart condition and am having twins, no, as if that wasn't enough, I also no longer have a job. And you guys know exactly how much I loved my job. So I'm sorry if I'm not myself lately. I don't even know who I am anymore." I said as tears welled up in my eyes and my emotions threatened to overwhelm me.

"Hey... everything's going to be okay. Calm down." Kyle replied as he came over to me and pulled me into his arms.

But after a moment, I pushed him away.

"You don't have to do this. You don't have to suddenly act like everything is fine between us." I said as I wiped my eyes.

"What do you mean?" wanted Adam to know.

"Oh please! Don't tell me you haven't noticed how tense and weird it is between the three of us. I sense more and more that neither of you really want to be here. You both want to do the right and decent thing and in the process you're making yourselves miserable," I explained.

"You should really stop saying that, Y/N. None of us would be here if we didn't really want to be. But Kyle and I also have to adjust to this new situation. You've had more time to do that." retorted Adam.

I inhaled deeply and exhaled audibly.

"I'm sorry. I just feel like I'm messing up your whole lives. I've hardly slept in the last few weeks because I'm constantly worrying about everything. About the health of the babies and about my own. How you guys are doing and about the future. I'm just so tired, so tense. Everything is just too much. Plus these hormones are no joke either. I'm so overwhelmed with this whole situation and I have no idea how to get out of this spiral," I cried, sitting down carefully on the couch.

Apparently the twins felt my tension, because they rolled and kicked like crazy. I rubbed my hand in circular motions over my bump, hoping that the two would calm down again.

"How can we help you, sweetie?" Adam wanted to know as the two sat down with me.

"I don't know. I just want to sleep. I need to relax somehow, because I'm sure my current state is not healthy for me or the little ones." I replied with a shrug.

"Well, if you're open to it, I have an idea that has always helped you sleep so far. And it's certainly relaxing," Kyle said softly as he stroked my back soothingly.

"Oh... I hadn't thought of that," I said.

"What do you say, Y/N? Do you want us to take care of you?" asked Kyle.

"Only if you really want to." I mumbled.

In response, Kyle pressed his mouth to mine. Immediately, a contented sigh escaped me. I hadn't realized how much I had missed this.

"Come with me. Lie down and relax. We'll take good care of you. I can't have you feeling uncomfortable. Today is all about you. We got you." Adam whispered in my ear.

They pulled me off the couch and ushered me into the bedroom. Slowly Adam pulled my shirt over my head while Kyle pulled my leggings down my legs along with my panties. Adam quickly undid the clasp of my bra and let it fall to the floor.

Kyle's fingers gently glided over the long, still bright red scar between my breasts. Then he took my breasts in his warm hands and caressed them. My nipples were so sensitive that I threw my head back and moaned loudly. 

Adam took the opportunity and kissed and sucked on my neck. Exactly at the spot under my ear. The place of which he knew only too well that it made me weak. God, how much I needed that, I had not even been aware of it. My body relaxed more and more as I surrendered to their touch. Gently Adam ran his hands over my baby bump while Kyle's long fingers found their way to my center and therefore to my clit.

It didn't take long for the waves of relief to set in and wash over me. All my tension and pent-up emotions flowed away.

"That's right... that's it... Let it all out." whispered Kyle as I slowly came down from my high.

"Get into bed, sweetie. Ideally on your side." Adam prompted me softly.

I did what he asked me to do. Already I could feel the positive effects in my body.

"Tell us if it gets too much for you or if we hurt you, okay?" murmured Adam in my ear as he lay down behind me.

"I will." I breathed.

Adam slowly entered me from behind. Very gently and carefully. When he was all the way inside me, he paused in silence.

"Go ahead... please..." I breathed again. That was all he needed to hear. Adam pulled out and began to rhythmically thrust back into me.

Kyle laid against my front and pressed his lips sensuously to mine. As I moaned again in satisfaction, his tongue entered my mouth and fought with my tongue for dominance.

I felt their hands everywhere. They left me wanting more. Maybe this would help us find our connection again. Or maybe that connection had never been lost. It was possible that she had just gone the wrong way for a while. 

After a while I was exhausted and drifted off into the best sleep I've had in a while. And I needed this sleep and relaxation so much. I had never imagined how much.