There could be errors everywhere. Sorry, I don't have much time to fix it. So please forgive me especially those grammar police out there.. haha
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After a month of sweetness from Mavs, I took Edward for granted. Madalang na kami mag-usap sa phone at palagi na siya nagtatampo.
Me: (via txt) sorry Edward masyado lang stress sa work kaya maaga ako matulog. Bawi ako sa'yo tomorrow. I miss you.
Edward: We both have the same work and LOB (line of business) Bakit ka nai-stress?
Me: yung TL (team leader) ko kasi aiming for the target na-prepressure kaming lahat sa team. Kaya super dami ng stress ko mga bente. (Of course it's just an alibi)
Edward: I understand, just let me know when you are ready to talk about it.
Me: Okay dear.
And so Mavs went to my apartment and slept overnight with me. It was the most precious moment I had with since as we gaze the dark sky outside with Bea while eating Marshmallow on a bonfire. When Bea fell asleep si Mavs ang nagbuhat sa kanya papunta sa room nila ni Yaya Xel. While I prepare my room so he could stay there with me.
In my room I wear a spaghetti straps blouse in a boxer shorts while he's just wearing boxers. Hindi kasi siya sanay matulog ng may damit only his boxers. Then it started with a kiss while his fingers touching my chest down to my hips.. Everything went blank as we make love tonight.
I woke up 5AM, it was our rest day anyway. He is still sleeping. I mean everyone is still sleep and so I go to my kitchen and cook breakfast for us.
He went out talking on his phone. I wonder who it was then I've seen my phone I receive 2 SMS from unknown number.
Unknown: Hi! Kasama mo po ba si kuya Mavs? GF po ito ng kapatid niya may emergency lang daw po kaya hinahanap siya.
Me: No, he is not with me. How did you get my number?
Unknown: Nakita ko lang po sa phonebook dito sa bahay. Sige salamat na lang.
Me: Okay
He is in a rush going home. Hindi na nga niya nakita yung breakfast that I prepared for him.
Ayan nanaman, hindi nagtetext. I texted Edward instead so I can divert my attention to him.
Me: Hi! How are you doing?
Ed: Fine, yourself?
Me: Good, thanks for asking.
Me: Well not that good..
Ed: Why? What's wrong? Can I see you tonight?
Me: Sure.
We went out and meet in a nearby mall and roam around while talking. He said, "I'm sure you are feeling pretty bad, huh?" I answerred, "Just confused.." He replied, "confused about what?" and so I say, "nothing". Silence covers us until we decided to go home.
Edward texted me:
"You can lie about everything but you can never fool me with your feelings. I know there's something wrong and if there will be something that I can do to bring the smile back to your face, I would. You'll just have to tell me what it is so I can definitely find a solution for it."
Me: Just stay for me no matter what. I might be needing to cross a bridge and see if the path is good to move forward with.
Ed: Gotcha! Not a rocky road if you chose not to sweetie.
Hay! Ano nga bang gagawin ko? Hindi na nagparamdam si Mavs until Monday. :(
I have decided, sasagutin ko na si Edward so I can move on with him. Nakakainis naman kasi si Mavs kung kailan namang okay na bigla nanaman siya mawawala. I'm starting to hate this life na!
"Momi, kamusta? " Mavs said.
Me: Okay naman .
I miss Mavs.. I just don't wanna be hurt anymore.
Me: di, I wanna tell you something.
Mavs: Ano yun mi?
Me: Sasagutin ko na si Edward this Sunday.
Mavs: Ipagpapalit mo na ba ako sa kanya mi?
Me: I have to. Di na kasi ako masaya. Palagi na lang ako nasasaktan and I feel like wala naman akong halaga sa'yo.
Mavs: Di mo ba naramdaman pagpapahalaga at pagmamahal ko momi Angela?
Me: I did but it makes me confused. One day, you're sweet and the other day you are missing in action. Hindi kasi consistent nakakalito. I keep Edward hanging around, kasi pati ako inconsistent sa kanya. He deserves to be loved.
Mavs: Okay mi, pero pwede pa rin kita itext di ba?
Me: Yup you'll be my bestfriend.
Mavs: Mahal kita kahit di ka naniniwala.
Me: Mahal kita, mahal na mahal but I also need to be fair kay Edward. He's been good to me and I will return the favor.
BINABASA MO ANG
The love you never had..
عاطفيةHave you ever found someone you thought he'll be the one yet circumtances are there to separate you in some ways?
