The love you never had..

Chapter 16: Depression

There could be errors everywhere. Sorry, I don't have much time to fix it. So please forgive me especially those grammar police out there.. haha
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I smile a lot but I feel hurt inside. Edward knew there's something wrong. We talked on Viber:

Edward: You can't cover your tears my love. What's bothering you?

Me: You. I mean I felt so rejected last time we talked about relationship.

Edward: Why? Okay naman tayo di ba even they don't officially know that we both feel something for each other.

Me: I know but I might be frustrated on getting someone whom I can call mine. Do you know what I mean? Hindi ko alam kung bakit ayaw niyo malaman ng lahat na mahal ko kayo at mahal niyo rin ako.

Edward: Kayo? You mean Mavs? Naguusap pa rin ba kayo?

Me: Yes, we still talk and I'm tired of what's happening to me. Akala ko ng dumating ka sa buhay ko, you are meant for me. Na ikaw yung magbibigay ng dahilan para kalimutan ko si Mavs but you are just like him. You're both not proud to be with me.

Edward: I'm sorry. I never thought you would feel this way.

I told myself, kailangan ko ng ayusin yung buhay ko. It's being so complicated na. I'm done with Edward then I'll talk to Mavs.

Mavs texted me.

Mavs: Mi, musta? Bakit di ka na nagpaparamdam? text ako ng text sayo di ka nagrereply. Busy ba kayo ni Edward mo?

Me: We are done dadi.

Mavs: Ah talaga? hehe

Me: Alam mo di, mahal ko kayo pareho pero alam ko sa sarili ko na mas matimbang ang love ko for you. Nasasaktan ako tuwing may nalalaman ako about you and your GF. Alam mo ba yung pakiramdam na gusto mo umiyak pero di mo magawa? I can't take this anymore. Let's put it this way, bigyan kita ng space for a month I guess. If you feel like you can live without me within a month choose me. If after a month you realize you can live without me then choose your GF.

Mavs: Okay

In month with no texts, no whatsapp, no viber and fb messages. I have been focusing on Bea and my friends, they are always in my apartment. Then, I got a call from dad.

Dad: Angela, you have been hired to Montevista Bank of the Philippines as an Account Executive. You'll be starting next week.

Me: What?! No dad I still have a job and I didn't apply for that position.

Dad: You did apply na upon talking to me.

Me: I never say I want it. Masaya ako sa work ko daddy.

Dad: You can't stay there anymore. I hired someone to check on you, how will you be so happy when Mavs is cheating on you while you, cheating on him?

Me: You don't understand dad. Why hire an investigator when you can just ask me?

Dad: I am your father, I don't want you to feel less independent kaya ayoko malaman mo na nakabantay pa rin kami ng mommy mo sayo. Last time umuwi ka sa bahay 2 days ka nagkulong sa room mo. Ayun ba yung sinasabi mong masaya?

Me: Okay dad, I'll start next week. (ayaw ko na pahabain yung discussion namin ni dad kasi alam kong matagal na niya ako gusto magwork sa bank niya)

Dad: Just be in the main office next week whatever time you want to report.

Me: Thanks dad. (Ang bait ng dad ko di ba?)

I submitted my resignation letter the next day after I received a call from dad. It was an immediate resignation.

Lean: Bes, iiwan mo na ako?

Me: Gusto mo ba sumama sa bago kong work?

Lean: Sige, saan?

Me: Montevista Bank? Account Executive assistant?

Lean: Woah! Really? Sige! Eh sino AE ko?

Me: Eh di ako! :)

And so Lean resigned na rin and she's living with me since wala din parents niya here both nasa province. We're both living in Valle Verde as my dad bought me a house there para malapit lapit sa friends ko from Cainta and malapit lapit sa Makati. We're both working in the main office at palipat lipat sa ibang branch. We are handling business clients and marami na kaming events na napuntahan.

As I asked my friends about Edward, they said He rarely go to work na daw and mukhang ma-terterminate na because of his reliability issues.

2 months after we talked same as with Mavs. Si Mavs hindi na nagparamdam ever since but Edward did send me a message in viber asking me how it goes with my new life. I didn't answer him back as my schedule really made me busy.

I opened a converstion with him in viber.

Me: How are you?

Edward: I'm fine messing up my life and you?

Me: Okay lang din kahit medyo busy. Would you like to have coffee with me some time.

Edward: Sure, but not now. I am still in pain with what you've told me last time.

Me: Oh okay.

I start thinking of Mavs.. I texted him kamusta..