I wanted to die.
I tried so many times.
But every time he saved me.
I fell in love.
He fell in love.
But there is always something or someone that breaks it.
So I'm changing the way I'm writing this story seen some other ways to write and I'm gunna try them out. Bold- coco Slanted- lil peep
It's been 4 months since Coco and Gustav have been seeing each other. They have gotten more close by the day.
It's been magical these last months seeing Gustav. It's like my whole depressed life has finally started to become a happy life. I'm still missing Tilly and Beth but with Gustav it feels like no one else is on earth. As I get dressed for bed my phone starts ringing. I grab it to see that it's Gustav. I press accept and it goes to face time.
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He looks so cute when he puts his face to close to the camera. "Hey b what's up, you never call me this late"
"Well maybe I wanted to fall asleep with someone on the phone. Also I wanted to tell you that you need to be up and ready for 12pm tomorrow. I'm taking you out boo" I hope that she agrees to meet me tomorrow. I have so much planned for her. She's special and has a warm place in my heart. I'm just scared to ask her to be my girl just in case I take control over her.
"Erm yes of course I will be ready. I would never say no to your adorable face would I" I wonder where or what we are doing. I hope he doesn't spend much money on me I know we are not dating or a couple so I wouldn't want him spending money on me even if we was going I still wouldn't want that. Not like any of his other bitches who would let him pay for anything all I want from him is his heart. But I don't think I even have that. I mean since the second time we first met and he came down to the secret beach I think that's the only time we kissed well I tried but we didn't. And still haven't and it hurts me so much.
"Yo Tracy come here bro" I call out for Tracy and he needs to help me get everything ready for later. It has to be perfect. Just like Coco is. I need to make my first move. "So what are you planning exactly?" Tracy just looked at me. What I had planned I didn't really think I could work. Or if she would like it. I explained to Tracy before I left to go pick Coco up. "Man she will love this. She has heart and love for you"
It's 12:03 and Gustav isn't here. I've been ready since 10:15. I guess I thought he would come early and I wanted to to fly. As I'm putting on my lil gloss I here a car pull up. "And where are you going?" The staff asked Coco. No one liked her going out on her own. Or out at all. They all knew what a risk she was to herself and others. "Does it fucking matter where I'm going I'm going out and that is that fuck off byeeee". "Well if that's the case go and pack your bags. Your out!" Shit. Shit. Shit. Now I'm homeless. For the 7th time in my life. I'm only 20. What is happening with my life. I go back up to my room and pack all my shit.
I walk over to Gustav's car and he looks at me with a happy amazing face then looks down at my bags and looks back up with a sad face.
