5 years too late [L.S]

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Louis

Im sure my leg is bouncing and I think I am biting my nails. I know that we are all in the car on the was back to Harrys house, paying the driver extra to get us there as fast as possible.

"He will be fine, breath Louis" Niall tries to calm me. He is probably blaming me, I am blaming me, but no one can deal with both of us having a meltdown.

"What if he...?" I stop mid sentence. But Nialls pale face tells me he got where I was going.

"He promised me he wouldn't, and I trust him... completely..." even tho it didn't sound convincing, it gave me some comfort that he won't cut, for the time being at least.

The ride to Harry's is quicker than expected and suddenly the four of us are at his front door, Liam struggling a bit to get the key to unlock the door.

I, probably all of us, expected the house to be crashed, maybe some screaming, but no one could even imagine moaning. When it was clear for all the boys what was occurring, they all turned to me with pity. Well, that only triggered my meltdown and I felt tears streaming down my chin.

"Let's get out of her Louis, let Harry have his space" Liam tried to reason, slowly leading me to the front door.

"Wait!" Zayn suddenly said, a panicked look in his eyes, only adding to the unsettling feeling in my gut.

"I-I .... I can't hear Harry, that doesn't sound like him..." he continued, stopping all of our breathing. You could clearly see the blood leaving our faces the moment we realized. Niall was the first one to react, getting out of his daze and running to Harry's bedroom.

He knocked a couple times

"Harry, Harry open the door, please Harry"

"He is kind of busy right now, come back in an hour or two when we are done" that certainly wasn't Harry, the awfully familiar voice hit us like a knife and suddenly we open the door, not prepared for what's waiting for us.

TW: rape

Dylan is fucking what seemed to be an unconscious Harry. He is lying on his back, hair all over the place, not moving a limb, but still getting fucked by Dylan.

"Get out you-" Dylan tries to tell us with a smirk, but Liam is pulling him of Harry and throwing him on the floor

"What the fuck?" He actually seems surprised, like genuinely surprised, does he think it's rude of us to interrupt him fucking our unconscious friend?

"I will fucking kill you!" Niall shouts at him before he gets on top of him and start punching. As I watch Niall deliver punch after punch I remember that Harry is still lying on his bed naked, and exposed for everyone to see.

In one quick motion I get the blanket and pull it up to at least his butterfly tattoo. Quickly checking his pulse. It takes a second for me to find it, during that short period of time, I felt like I could die.

I open his eyes to see the awfully familiar reddens. Drugs. I have been in this business long enough to know what it looks like. The only concern is that he may have taken to much. I quickly decide to take his trashcan, with help from Zayn, and put two fingers in his mouth, getting him to puke.

And he does, he pukes a couple of time before falling down to bed again. Very weak. But strong enough to se Liam pulling Niall of Dylan, and throwing him out of the house.

I visibly see him shaking, pulling the duvet up to his chin, trying to hide himself as much as possible.

"Get out" I suddenly tell the others

"Louis-" Niall tries with a stern look, still angry at Dylan. And probably me.

"Get. Out." I try again. Zayn is the first one to get the hint. Sending us a small smile and nod before exiting. Next is liam, who is pulling Niall with him. Although Niall still doesn't look convinced.

As soon as the door shuts, I'm pulling Harry's shaking body to mine, hugging him tightly. At first he is unsure what to do, but after a second, he hugs back just as tightly. Still shaking.

"I'm sorry lou, I'm so sorry"

"You don't have to be sorry for anything, love. This wasn't your fault, it was mine, and it was Dylan's. "

He lets go a bit to look me in the eye
" it's not your fault, I get why you don't want to leave el, she is pretty, no anger issues, no drama, no fucked up exes or addictions, and has her shit together. I- I can never be that" it breaks my heart to know that Harry thinks that lowly of himself.

"Listen to me Harry. You are pretty, You are beautiful. You are the best human I have ever met, with the best heart there is to have. I don't know how I even got to be a part of that heart, or how I managed to put a dark spell over it. And I promise to do everything in my power to lift that spell. But for me being with el... trust me, If I knew I had the smallest chance with you, I would leave her in a heartbeat. In a heartbeat Harry. But I don't deserve you, I have destroyed to much to deserve you."

"I-I don't know... I don't know If I'm ready, not just for you, but for anybody. I'm too broken to be able to give someone a piece of me. To broken to be loved-"

"No. Harry you are so easy to love. All of us love you. Especially me. And I'm not saying that you have to get back with me, I would just love to be there for you, help you piece yourself together."

"Leave"

"What?" I look at him confused but slowly start untangle myself from him.

"No. No." He pulls me back in, letting out a little laugh almost. "Not like that. Leave her, leave el. I know I'm selfish, and I know the two of you may be happy together, but she made you not eat, she cheated on you, she fucked us up. She-"

"Okey"

"What"

"I will leave el, first thing tomorrow morning"

"Just like that?"

"Just like that. Harry I love you, I never truly stopped loving you. El was only security for me, but you need my security more than I need hers, and YOU make me feel so much better than she ever did."

He just sends me a small smile and hugs me again. His forehead resting on my chest. We don't move until Harry stops shaking. Then I help him to the shower and changed the sheets while he stood under hot water, trying to ease the pain in his mind and body.

He walks out with a towel wrapped around his waist.

"I will leave so that you can change in peace. Then if you want to be alone, you could stay here, if you want only me or one of the boys to be here with you, just call for us, otherwise the four of us will be in front of the TV, and you are more than welcome to join" he nods and I slowly walk out of the room, gently shutting the door.

As soon as I get to the TV room, all eyes are on me "he is fine, or as fine as he can be after... you know" they all lean back, finally breathing. And I join them.

I take out my phone, and write a quick message to el

Hi el,

I know you cheated on me, we are over.

Yours truly, Louis :)

I press send, not regretting it for a second, only feeling relieved.