All You Need Is Love (MewGulf AU)

🌞Chapter 52🌻

PRESENT
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He felt as if he were drowning in warmth.

Everything had become dreamlike. He remembered the first time they had come together.

Just tangling their fingers together, his body shook. Just feeling his breath, pleasure shot straight to the back of his brain. He couldn't even describe the sensation of kissing, of each touching the other's penis.

Running his palm over the skin of Gulf's entire body, he excited him, and grew more excited, as well.

Still lost in his dream, the climax passed over him. He released it in the space of a thought.

Reassuring himself of the presence of Gulf in his arms. Mew let out an impassioned sigh. He thought it must be a dream. But the solid weight and heat of Gulf's body told him that this was real.

"Mew---"

Glistening with sweat, his chest reflected the fluorescent light. This was nothing like it had been in high school. They had still been immature then. They were the same age, but Gulf's body had been far slimmer than Mew's and looked more delicate.

But the body he held im his arms was unmistakably masculine.

It was because they were both men that Mew felt so tender toward him. Gulf's eyes turned to look  straight up at him, catching him by surprise, and all too soon he was caught in their spell.

Mew had nothing eight years ago. Neither a way to protect his beloved Gulf, nor the power to run away with him, nor anything else. And so his beloved Gulf had been forced to lie to him.

It had been blindingly obvious that Gulf was lying to him. He was one of those people who couldn't tell lies. The more desperate he became, the more clearly Mew saw the truth in his eyes and face. He saw how much he loved him, how much he cared for him. In Gulf's abuse, Mew heard only a declaration of love.

Each word of Gulf's emotions that he heard frustrated Mew with his own powerlessness. He couldn't protect the first man who had ever loved him and recognized him for who he was. Unless he overcame his weakness, it would always be that way.

He wasn't sure he would ever see Gulf again after that, but if he did, he never wanted to let him go again. He decided to become strong enough that he wouldn't have to.

Eight years later, long enough to have given up, Mew was reunited with Gulf once again.

Mew wasn't religious, and he didn't really believe in the supernatural. Steeped in the world of the yakuza since his childhood, it was pretty much inevitable. But when he saw Gulf, in his bar in Shinjuku of all places, the coincidence had shocked him, and he awoke to the presence of God.

But he had been patient. It was a stroke of good luck for him, but Gulf might have seen it differently. If Gulf didn't want to see him again, Mew couldn't force him to then.

So he gave Gulf a break and a chance. There was no avoiding the fact that Mew was a yakuza, so Gulf would been to be fully prepared to be with him. At the same time, Mew decided to reassure himself about his own feelings and find out whether they had changed or not from eight years before.

But whatever Gulf felt, Mew knew hus own feelings immediately.

Jusy seeing his face, Mew had felt a shock strong enough to stop his heart. If he touched Gulf, he'd never be able to let him go again. He knew he might end up harassing him, but he couldn't stop himself. And then when they ran into each other again at the hotel, Gulf could have run away, but he didn't. Mew was lost.

He didn't know how many times they'd slept together since then. But everytime they did, his feelings for Gulf pierced him.

Gulf's hard muscles had forced Mew to accept the person he held in his arm was a man.

This was a man who had planted both his feet on the ground and stood tall on hisbown. He was independent financially and emotionally. This was not the Gulf of the past. He was an adult man, capable of distinguishing between good and evil. He held his own value system and he had chosen to be in Mew's arms.

The road ahead of them would not be an easy one. It would probably be rocky, in fact, but Gulf had chosen to walk it with him. And the moment that Gulf had chosen to be with him, Mew decided that he would protect him no matter what. Being the subject of unconditional love only strengthened his own feelings.

Mew didn't need anything else. All he wanted was Gulf's love. To love and to be loved, that made him stronger, and it also made him happier.

He had believed this love to be lost once already, so his feelings were even stronger now. He would never let it go again. Even if Gulf told him to leave, he wouldn't listen this time.

TBC