Forever Mine

Chapter 42

I wake up and I feel my eyes still not wanting to open. I look down a blanket gently draped over me. My left wrist is aching and my right arm is so unbelievably sore. I try to move both of them. My left wrist is covered in the white gauze. I assume Liam had fixed it after all that happened. My right arm won't move. He handcuffed me to the bed again. Oh my god and he drugged me.

"LIAM WHAT THE FUCK!!!" I scream at the top of my lungs.

I begin to cry. That's all my feelings were anymore. Crying and depression.

"Liam please. Let me go. I won't do it again." I cry louder.

I didn't regret doing what I did. I didn't want to live anymore. I was being selfish. I just didn't want to live like this anymore. It was all too much. After having time to think and talk with Liz, am I glad that Liam saved me? That's a tough question. I hate myself for almost killing my babies. But I also don't want them to grow up like this. I also hate that I would be leaving behind Chase, Emma, Liz, my family. I just didn't want to do it anymore.

"Avery what's wrong?! It's okay I'm right here." Liam looked panicked.

"You are terrible to me! You drugged me and then handcuffed me! My god Liam what the fuck!" I cry.

He rushes over and unlocks the handcuff from the bed. I let down my sore arm and rub my reddened wrist.

"Why?" I croak.

Liam looks into my tearful eyes and takes my hands.

"I was so afraid to loose you again Av. You hate me that much? You say you hate me but I really didn't think that much. I drugged you because you were having a bad panic attack. I know when you're having them. I just wanted you to be able to sleep. I just wanted you to be okay. I handcuffed you because I was downstairs. I was afraid you would wake up and try to hurt yourself again.... Av how can I trust you? How can I know you won't try to hurt yourself again? What if I don't find you in time?"

I hated that he was watching my every single move. I didn't like being watched over. 

"Things need to change Liam." I mumble.

"Clearly." He snaps back.

I shoot him a glare.

"Sorry." 

"What can I do to make you happier Av? I want to do that for you, let me do that for you." 

I was about to say something but he cuts me off.

"Other than letting you go. You know that won't happen." 

I roll my eyes. That's all I really wanted. 

I pause for a moment to think of the things I do want. I am 4 months from escaping out of here (maybe earlier if Wren and Liliah decide.) What did I want to make these last few months comfortable? 

"Fine. I want more freedom Liam. Way more. So that means no drugging me or handcuffing me! I don't want you up my butt constantly worried about me. I am fine.  I can fend for myself. I want to be able to see Emma and Ella more. I want to go outside. Sit by the water. Be able to sit outside without you being right next to me. I want the windows open, the doors unlocked I am tired of feeling like such a prisoner. If I really was your wife you wouldn't keep me prisoner." 

Liam is sitting their tapping is foot impatiently looking irritated. 

"You done?" 

"Yes I am thank you very much." I snap back at him. 

"I won't drug you or handcuff you anymore. I just couldn't be with you so I handcuffed you incase you woke up. You can go outside and see Emma and Ella more. But I have to be with you. I can't just leave the doors unlocked for you to roam free Avery you know that wouldn't happen. 

I can't help but laugh. Typical Liam. Always wanting to make me happier but whenever I give my demands he can't give me them. I get up and walk away. I figure it would be worth a shot asking for what I wanted, but I knew it was a long shot. 

"Wait! Where are  you going?" Liam is already right on my tail.

"Woah down boy." I roll my eyes. 

"I am going to make something to eat, that ok?" I snap.

I can tell he is annoyed but pushes it away. 

"Are you mad?" He looks at me worried.

"Just annoyed Liam. It is always the same. We fight. I get upset then you tell me to ask you for anything. When I do you don't give it to me." 

Liam scoffs. 

"Listen. I don't want to come off as an ass, but really Av? I just told you I would let you see Emma and Ella more, and that you could go outside. I am giving you what you want. To make you happy. The only thing I can't do is keep the doors unlocked. Come on Av. You knew that. Why are you acting like I am some villain? I know you might be happy with me but I am trying here for you. Why are you trying to hate me?"

Was I being inconsiderate? He was right. I knew he wouldn't unlock the doors. I could escape. He wasn't that dumb. He did tell me I could go outside more and see them. That was something. No. No.

I was settling. I was settling for being a prisoner. "I knew he couldn't unlock the doors." I wasn't a goddamn prisoner and I was tired of feeling like one. 

"BECAUSE I DO HATE YOU LIAM! I SHOULDN'T BE LOCKED IN THE GOD DAMN HOUSE!" I storm out of the hallway and head downstairs. 

Thankfully Liam takes the hint and lets me be. 

A few hours pass, I manage to avoid Liam even though I know he's watching me. Afraid that I'll hurt myself again. I change into my pajamas and pull back the covers. It doesn't take long for me to fall asleep. I pray Liam doesn't come to bed with me but I know that would never happen. Especially after all that has happened.

"Hello there Avery." I hear his evil voice as I am being dragged to my feet. 

I'M BACK!!!! I know it's been a min I am sorry!!! I am hoping to have some more time to write tho!!! Are you guys still enjoying though?? Be honest (: I hope you like this lil cliff hanger (; the next chapter will make more sense with the cliff hanger hehe. Comment and vote!! I missed you guys!