Blue's Healing (HIATUS)

Chapter 20

I took a small break but I'm back....I cried in this chapter...Just a little...please enjoy this chapter. Mwah <3

TW: MENTIONS OF DEATH
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December 13, 2020
There wasn't a lot that I got excited about but this had made it's way into my heart and wasn't letting go. My phone had chimed a few minutes ago letting me know I had a text. I checked it thinking it was Grammy telling me I needed to come home, seeing as it was Sunday evening, but I was surprised to find it wasn't her. It was the mysterious faerie man asking how I was doing and if I made it home safely even though I always make it home safely. We had been exchanging text back and forth for weeks ever since that day. I grew to enjoy his company too on the few time I got to see him with the his busy schedule and me being in school still.
I spent a lot of time at Spencers house with everyone since he has the largest house
    I get up from the couch tucking my phone away in my pocket as Zane walks into the room.
    "What you doing?"
    "Nothing. Just responding to text that may or may not be from the mysterious man from the diner and club. Did you guys ever find out his name? Even though, we have been talking he won't tell me his name."
    His eyes spark with curiosity, "Hmm, I don't think so. Maybe ask the others but what did he want?!"
    Shrugging I dig my hand in my pocket retrieving the phone I had just put away, saying, "Well, see for yourself. It's nothing juicy just the usual," as I toss it to him.
He catches the phone with excitement set a blaze in his eyes, "Can I really?!"
I nod laughing as he greedily scans the few text that had just been exchanged between us. There wasn't much to see as I just responded but Zane and I have grown to be closer than anyone else; besides Rosie. We are now like...I can't find the word yet.
"Wow... I wonder who he is, though he seems to care for you a lot for some reason. Are you sure you never meet him before? It all just seems like... I don't know man."
I shift on my feet as I think back to the faerie man appearance and chuckle running my hands through my hair, "I think I would know if I met this man before. Plus, he seems older than us."
"True... Enough about that though. Let's go play the X-box! I gonna beat you since last time we were too tired to really focus," Zane smirks tossing my phone back to me.
I gaze at Zane as a feeling I've never felt before encompasses me making me realize that I loved him like a brother. I never had any siblings but always envied those who did.
I felt like crying at the feeling but I pushed it away saying, "I doubt it. I'm always in tip-top shape." Throwing my arm around his shoulder as I steer us in the direction of the game room where everyone seems to gathered in now.
"That is such a grandpa thing to say!"
"Yea, well I do live with my Granny," I say laughing as lightly push him into the room.
"That's your new name, Gramps! Guys, Miles has a new name!" Zane runs around the room as I hurl pillows and random stuffed animals at him as everyone dodges before joining us. The pillow fight would be a first and I was overwhelmed with a sense of gratefulness for the people that pelleted me with pillows and eventually Nerf bullets.
My life is never going to see a cloudy day is what I had thought in this moment. No, I will many cloudy days that seemed to have no end.
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March, 11, 2021
There are multiple things that I have yet to experience but if these souls were supposed to show me them and no one else then it all seems to be worth it. My pain, suffering, terror, scars, my fragile mind and soul, my past experiences, the people the took something from me that I'll never be able to get back, my mom, the parent I knew for a little while, the music that I still have trouble listening to, the night terrors, the stranger that I used to see in the mirror, the shadows that still lurk, and the hurt I still feel; though I tell myself that I've forgiven everyone. It all seems worth it... I've got a long way to go before I can forgive myself for a lot of things. There are things that I could tell the souls that just walked into my life but I believe there are somethings that I need to deal with alone. I threw myself away into that hiding spot years ago, and I'm still trying to find it. The one I know so well that its engraved in my soul but I just... There are shadows and monsters that still have a purpose to fulfill though I try so hard to tell them to leave and give up...It all seems worth it... Whether the year passes by without a hitch or if the sun shines brighter everyday or I smile more everyday...