"Will we be able to change what happened in the past?" II Jihan, Chancheol

Regret

Jeonghan's POV

I'm sorry I hurted you...

I know that I shouldn't be chasing after you anymore but why does the sight of you happy right now makes me regret everything...? 

We both have a reputation now and I know that you don't want to ruin yours but why can't you just let me talk to you??? I know I've made a big mistake and with that mistake I've hurted you... I've ruined Chan and Seungcheol's relationship, I've ruined and broke you're heart...I've ruined everything. 

But why am I in pain right now? I'm with cheol who loved me for over 6 years while you're nowhere to be found and I've left you and broke up with you by making myself believe that I no longer love you. I'm with you through you're hard times, happy, and sad times but was that times...was I really in love with you...? Did I just use you to fill up the big hole inside of me? You loved me with all you're heart while I'm just giving you false hope that we'll be together forever...

You loved me until the end....maybe that's why I'm in pain right now. I'm broken...because this broken heart was the proof that it was loved...I was loved...The love that I wasted...the love that nobody else can give me...only him.

Maybe that's why I'm crying just by hugging him. I knew that Joshua would ask me to let go but hearing it from his own voice was...heartbreaking. Just by hearing that phrase from his mouth is piercing through my heart. Who would've thought that the heartbreaker would be the one so heartbroken in the end? (His referring to himself) 

Look how pathetic I am right now. I've let go of someone who I'm chasing right now. If I can't do anything about it then I hope that destiny, will help me find a way towards you're heart again...

Seungcheol's POV

I really wish that the past can be rewritten again...

I want to change what happened...I want to bring back the Chan that I once knew.

Talking to him again for the first time in 6 years...many things really had changed. He now knows how to put a gap between other people and he have learned how to contain his emotions. I know that he's still affected by our past, just like me. I just hope that working with us, their exes won't bother their career and concentration. 

Everyone is already back in the room and apparently, Chan and Joshua had changed seats which saddens me a little. I'm okay with him not talking to me but I just hope that I would be able to get close to him just a little bit. The last person who entered the room was Jeonghan who had swollen eyes. Looks like something happened...

I mouthed an 'are you okay' to Jeonghan and he just nodded and smiled a little. I believe that something happened which I wasn't aware of. Joshua wouldn't be changing seats with Chan if nothing happened. Sigh, he really needs to be careful or else, our reputations will be at stake. It would be okay for me and Jeonghan but Chan and Joshua can't ruin their images. If they're images gets ruined, it would also bring their whole group down or in other words, their dreams are all going to get crushed and that is the last thing that I don't want to do. 

The talk with the members continued and we were able to understand their personalities although...Joshua's and Chan's personalities seems to be undefined. It feels like they're hiding from us and they're not giving us the chance to get to know them all over again. But thanks to the other members, we were able to know some stories about Chan and Joshua. That Hoshi guy said that Chan was the future of K-POP which I didn't quite understand. The others started laughing at what the Hoshi guy said, Chan also laughed loudly more than anyone which brought music to the ears. It's been so long since I last saw him this happy...