"Will we be able to change what happened in the past?" II Jihan, Chancheol

Guilty

~|Three Days Later|~

|Third Person's POV|

The nights felt so lonely...

The warmest feeling that Jeonghan ones had before was now gone...

The heart that used to beat rapidly and loudly for that person was now like a lifeless heart that wasn't beating like before..

A life that looks so lifeless..

And the feelings that ones had...was replaced by sorrow and loneliness.

Every night felt so long for Jeonghan.

He thought that it was probably because of what happened between him and Joshua a few days ago...

Honestly, Jeonghan wanted to cry so bad...but why can't his tears come out?

When the time he wanted to cry the most...why can't his tears fall?

Was it because he already cried so much yesterday?

Or...

Was it because he already felt numb now that he finally came back into reality(?)

Three days ago...because of Joshua's punch, he realized that he only kept on living inside a dream...A dream that can never come to life.

How stupid of him to live inside those memories that were always stuck on his head.

But even if it was only for a split second, he felt...happiness.

It looked so vivid that it made him believe in those thoughts...

The thoughts that he and Joshua had ones again gone back together...more inseparable...more stronger...and more happier...than before.

Maybe he really is a hopeless person after all.

Going around on circles but where can he take a rest? Where can he feel at ease?? 

Now that his purpose on continuing is gone....where can he go now..?

Its already time to stop...but where does he stop?

Where can he find the feeling of being contented...?

You can say that this was the most challenging part for Jeonghan.

Back then, he still had a place where he belonged...

But now..

Where does he belong..?

Seungcheol had broken up with him. Although he understood the reason why, he still felt a little pain inside him.

Now that Joshua...and Seungcheol are gone...where does he go now?

No one was there when he needed them...but he honestly wished that Joshua was there with him.

Do you know that feeling? 

The feeling of trying to let go but couldn't? 

The feeling of trying to be okay but couldn't?

The feeling of trying not to miss them but always failed to do so?

Will he still be able to be let go? Be okay? And to no longer miss them...?

Chan/Dino's POV

I hardly even slept a single bit this past few days.