reaching out

the voice

I realised that I didn't die
I just survived,
But I am still tied.
I try to move but my body says no
'You can't move unless you let go'
I am confused,
And I feel abused,
But I guess what I really am is used but by whom?
I questioned myself
And all I could say was
'My ghosts that haunt me and taunt me '
I laughed - as if that didn't affect me.
I suddenly heard an unknown voice
'How can you laugh when you are tied? '
' I don't know' I replied
Guess I am just used to being tied.
' don't you want to know what freedom feels like? '
Asked the voice
' I don't think I can , I am just meant to survive '
I replied
'Hey, let me tell you what freedom feels like'
Again said the voice
'It feels like you finally have your peace of mind,
It feels like you have loved yourself all your life.
It feels free but it's more than that.
It's a feeling that you can finally have-
Have nothing at all yet everything that you want '