MARCID

-17-

"What happened in there?"I sighed."I told him what happened.The doctor started anylzing me and it pissed me off.So I left him there and found you.That's it."

"The doctor was a girl.""Nope.Last minute switch.Doctor was a guy."She held my hands."Do you want to talk about it?"I shook my head."I'm going to sleep.I'm still dizzy."She nodded and let me go.

≪ Sorin's POV ≫

I was going to storm out after her but then he stopped me."As her doctor,that won't be wise,sir.I could see that you care a great deal about my patient.I know she cares and trusts you too."

I never heard that before.I never thought someone could trust me before.My own parents never did.Now this guy is telling me that...She trusts me?

"You don't believe that she could,do you?"I backed away and sat down."No.I don't."He nodded and sat back down like I did.

"What she went through as you heard...None of that was easy.She probably only trusted people like me because of our oath.Besides that,the only person she trusted all her life was herself."

"Doc,all we have is ourselves at the end of the day.Everything else is an illusion."

"What is it isn't?What is she isn't an illusion to you?What if you are not an illusion to her?"

Now,I was out of words.I couldn't have responded to that in any way that I knew."What's that supposed to mean?""It means that her mind is playing tricks with her."

"Tricks?!How?!"

"She wants to trust you,and she does in her heart,but her mind is weakening with the memories of her past.Her mind isn't strong enough to prove that you are not an illusion.Her heart is taking advantage of the state of her mind."

"Isn't that a good thing?For her to follow her heart?"He shook his head."Not if her mind has been in control her whole life.She's shattered,as she put it.But I think her heart chose you to pick up the pieces of her soul."

I was about to open my mouth and ask him why me? he kept talking.

"You don't know what to do with these feelings either,do you?I watched you,the entire time,too.You turned red out of anger a lot."

"She was too captivated in the memories that she couldn't even realise how tight you were gripping on her and how chest would rise heavily yet rapidly."

All of that was true.Then my mind shifted to the thought of me gripping on her and leaving bruises.And not in a good way.What have I done?!

"What are you thinking?Your anger switched to...concern?Worry?"I sighed."What if I gripped on her too tight that I left bruises?"I was miserable yet he smiled.

"I don't think you are capable of hurting her.You gripped on her but you also treated her like a fragile China doll.Answer honestly,please.Have you had something sexual with her?"

I nodded."Yesterday,hours before she fell into that situation."He nodded."Can you tell me how you met her?"I rolled my eyes."Might as well."I took a deep breath.

"I got out of anger management camp and a month after,she came out of rehab.First time I met her was when I saw her school documents file on the Dean's table.Face to face?"

"That same night.I don't know where she was coming back from at that hour but I saw her trying to watch me from afar.I was talking to my right hand about something work related."

"I saw her and I cornered her.She kicked me to leave.I knew we went to the same college.I realised how much it hurt her to look into my eyes.I didn't know why,back then."