MARCID

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We came to the balcony with our mugs and we sat down."Tell me."I nodded.

"Alright.I have to be awake by 10,max.But I usually wake up earlier due to nightmares.I first make coffee.If I think it'll be a hard day,I put alcohol in it.If not,just plain black coffee."

"I have afternoon classes so I either work at the bar,tag somewhere or draw at home with Lux.I have another coffee at lunch time.I go to the campus from there.When I get there,I get iced coffee,though."

"After classes,I either come back home to draw with Lux,go work at the bar if I hadn't in the morning,tag somewhere on my own,smoke at the balcony or go to bed early."

"I eat around 6pm.I don't like spicy food.Unlike normal girls,my comfort food is noodle.I have a few vegitables that I like,other than those,I hate the rest.I like chocolate but I'm not in love with it."

"My favorite brands are Chivas Regal and Jack Daniels.As drugs,I only smoke weed.I have the ability to smoke an entire joint in two weeks.Yet,I can finish and entire Chivas Regal in an hour."

He laughed."It's funny you think I'm letting you drink.""Sorin,I don' thtink you understand.If I don't drink,I'm not going to be like this.I'm going to be pissed off more often.You don't want that."

"Pissed off or not.You got alcohol poisoning and you had a transplant at the age of 15!That's not how it is supposed to go!"I sighed."I had lost my boyfriend!There was another funeral in my life!"

"So you chose to ruin yourself?!""It was what I did at every funeral behind everybody's back!So,I did that.As long as no one dies that I care about,I can control my drinking.I always had that willpower,I never used it!"

His anger was rising.I was going into the fire with more fuel.I sighed."I'm going to go draw.You clearly need to be alone.""No,I don't."He held my hand and took me to the living area.

"You wait."He came back with my drawing and painting stuff."I found a shirt with a lot of acrylic paint on it.I got that too."I took my shirt and wore it over the underwear set.

I took my acrylic paints out and my notebook.I made my hair into a bun again and sat down."I don't want you to work for the enemy,Raven."I turned to him mid-painting.

"What?""The Santos is the enemy.You can join our gang's bikers."I put down my notebook."Sorin,those people trust me.Dex may have went a little overboard but what about the rest of them?"

"I don't care.If there were to be a disagreement,you'll be caught in the crossfire!"I sighed."Raven,if it was up to me,which is but whatever,you wouldn't even be a part of any gang."

"It was never my plan to be a part of a gang,Sorin.If I leave them,that's fine.But if I leave them for your gang,then it isn't fine.That's betrayal.No one wants that."

"So,you'd leave them?"I nodded."Why not?They are paying me to spend a day in a bar and for my art.I do whatever I want and get paid for it.That's the fun."

"Then leave them."I shrugged."Sure.Once we get back,I'll do it.You have my phone shut remember?So we won't be found?"He nodded."Once we get back,then."

I got back to my painting.Then a guy in a fully black suit showed up."Everything is finished,Mr.Einar."He gave him a nod and the guy left.

"What is finished?""I've been having a renovation here since I started...You know,liking you?I wanted to take you here one day and that one day came earlier than expected."

"I thought you wanted take care of me,not start a whole new life for me.""I'm starting a whole new life for both of us."His blank face suddenly lightened up and he smiled.

"Take your notebook and come with me."I followed him to another corner of the mansion.It was gigantic,this place.

We ended up in a room with white walls and every type of supply a professional would need."Sorin?"My eyes got stuck on the ceiling.It was made out of glass.

"This is all yours."I was speechless."Sorin...I-I-I don't...I have...Oh my God."Then he sat down in one of the armchairs.There was a little corner there,probably for him to watch me.

"Start."

I sat down at the armchair in front of him and kept doing my painting there.We silently sat there and then I got bored.I started singing a song that came to my mind in that moment.

I started singing 'Creep' by Radiohead.

"But,I'm a creep.I'm a weirdo.What the hell am I doing here?I don't belong here.I don't care if it hurts.I wanna have control.I want a perfect body.I want a perfect soul."

I kept singing until I realised that Sorin was recording me.

"Whatever makes you happy.Whatever you-"I looked at him."What are you doing?""Just keeping a little souvenir from you."I rolled my eyes."Don't record me."

"Why not?!""Because I don't like it.Phoenix always did it and it annoyed me.Now,I know why he kept that close of an eye on me.So he can report back to Falcon."

"I'm not Phoenix.I'm not going to send this to anyone.I just want to have it with me."I sighed."Fine."

"Come on.We'll be late to class."He got me by hand and took me to the study in here."What do you mean 'we'll be late to class' ,Sorin?"He opened the laptops and made me sit down next to him.

"Online classes of our normal classes.You have Art History."We got to work and really had our classes.

Around 7pm we were finally done."Come on,dinner time."He got me by hand once again and took me to the kitchen this time."What do you want?"I looked into the fridge.

"It's on me tonight."I made Mac n Cheese.I made coffee too.I let down my hair once I was done."So you basically eat once but eat whatever the fuck you want?"

"Basically,yeah.I also drink 3L of water every day.Along with almost 1,5L of coffee."We both chuckled."I think I can get on board with your system."I sighed.

"Sorin,you don't have to change your schedule for me.You can eat in front of me,I am as stubborn as it gets.I also have immense will power."

"How immense?""I can never drink in my entire life ever again if I wanted to.If you hadn't realised,I haven't had one drop of alcohol today.I didn't want to nor did I need to."

"I realised.I also realised how you can sing,how you can cook,how you can stand up for yourself and how you bow down to no one.Though,you are a reasonable person,something I also realised today."

"You reasoned with me and I told you my routine.Right?Right.There is nothing you cannot convince me as long as you reason with me."

"Got it.Also,you should wear dresses or skirts more often."I nodded."I'll wear a dress tomorrow.What do you say?""I'm all in."

Next morning,I woke up from a nightmare.I didn't scream but I had to take a shower.I was in between whether should I wake Sorin up or not.I don't want him to be mad at me.

"Sorin...Sorin,I'm taking a shower."He sat up straight on the bed like me."Why?Why are you covered in sweat?What's wrong?"I sighed."I uhm...I had a nightmare.It wasn't the worst but it wasn't the easiest either."

"Come on."He got up and we went to the bathroom togather.We took a shower togather and then it was 7 in the morning."Like I said,I wake up earlier than 10 due to nightmares."

He wrapped his arms around me and kissed the top of my head."You're mine,now.Remember?"I nodded as I wrapped my arms around his torso."I remember."

We spent our days life this for a while.That while didn't last long.It was Christmas morning when a man came in with a woman.

We were sitting at the balcony.I was sitting on his lap.We were reading togather and they came in."Sorin?"Sorin scoffed and I was confused."What are you two doing here?"

Woman spoke up."Don't mind if I want to be with my son when it is Christmas!"Now it made sense.