Bound to Fall Apart

Chapter 08

"I love you..."

I scoffed. "You love me? Talaga ba?" I asked sarcastically. "Kung mahal mo 'ko, bakit ka naglihim sa 'kin? Parte ba ng pagmamahal ang pagsisinungaling?"

He reached for my hand, but I redirected it away from him. "Please... Pakinggan mo muna ako..."

"W-why did you keep it hidden from me?" My voice cracked. "Kung sinabi mo lang sana sa 'kin, maiintindihan ko."

"Sorry---"

"Palagi mong sinasabi sa 'kin na pagkatiwalaan kita... So I did..." My eyes welled up and tears streamed down my cheeks. "Pero ikaw... Nagtiwala ka ba sa 'kin?"

"Oo---"

"I doubt it." I wiped my tears away. "Kung talagang nagtiwala ka sa 'kin, bakit hindi ka nagpakatotoo?" I kept my eyes focused on him. "Dahil akala mo hindi ko maiintidihan ang sitwasyon? Dahil akala mo... ganoon nalang kakitid ang utak ko? Edi hindi mo nga ako pinagkatiwalaan."

"Hindi... Hindi sa ganoon..." He looked up to the night sky to stop his tears from falling. "N-natakot lang ako."

"Duwag ka kung ganoon." Someone was about to say something, but I pretended not to notice it. "You've just completely destroyed my trust in you. And now... no matter what you do, once you've lost someone's trust, it's gone for good."

I could see how puzzled his face is, but he still tried to respond. "Sorry... Patawarin mo ako..."

"Okay..." I smiled in pain. "Apology accepted, but trust denied."

"And cut!" Direk shouted. "Cassidy... You did great!" He applauded briefly before shifting his attention to Sylvester. "Buti nakasabay ka sa ad lib niya, Sylv."

"Oo nga po, direk!" He chuckled. "Medyo kinabahan ako dahil wala na sa script 'yong binato niyang mga linya sa 'kin nitong huli."

"Sorry, nadala lang sa eksena," nahihiyang sabi ko.

"I'm actually impressed," nakangiting sabi ni direk. "You far exceeded my expectations, Cassidy. You are well-deserving of the success you achieved in Hollywood."

I said I would never go back to this place again... but see how playful destiny can be.

We've been here for two weeks now for the short film's taping. Ilang araw kong kinulit si Eunice para hindi nalang kami matuloy sa pagpunta rito, pero walang nangyari. This was arranged ahead of time before my arrival, and I had already signed the agreement, so there's no way it'll be canceled. Kahit na short film lang 'to, ito pa rin ang unang project ko sa pagbabalik ko... kaya hindi ko nagawang umatras.

Walang pinagbago ang islang 'to. Tahimik pa rin at wala masyadong nakatira. Medyo marami lang tignan ang mga tao ngayon dahil nandito kami ng buong set. Nagtataka ang ilang mga residente kung bakit kami nandito, pero mukha namang wala silang pakialam. Ganoon pa rin talaga ang mga taga rito, hindi pa rin sila mahilig sa social media at tv.