So What If I Sin?

Chapter 2

For the next few nights, the same group of kids went by my place (unknowingly of course) and laughed and shouted and yelled all in front of my window for a bit before running (or skating) along to another street.

And over the next few nights my head would slightly stick out of my window. Over the time I spent observing, I was able to get a better look at all of them thanks to the street lights that shined over them and even learned small things about them based off of their loud conversations they had that echoed through the empty street.

They all looked interesting, they all looked fun, and in a sense I was starting to grow jealous of them. I envied the way they got to just run around freely in the late hours in the night like they didn't have a care in the world, like this was their last night alive, like their parents didn't leave them a list of scriptures to memorize on their door. 

Though each one of the "free flyers" (as I now referred to them as in my head) looked enjoyable and fun, I seemed to take a liking to the one who was always at the front, always leading them in a sense. 

He had shoulder length black hair from what I could see, the top usually pulled into a small ponytail. His eyes shined in the golden street lights though I couldn't quite tell the color of them. He seemed to always wear a wide smile on his face, along with a leather jacket and jeans on his body, the shirt under always changing, and his voice was always the first one I heard, the first one to echo, the most recognizable. 

I might've took a mental liking to him considering he was the first person to catch my attention by yelling first the other night, but it might've been because I found him pretty attractive. In a dude way! In a, "yeah he def gets all the girls" way. I'm not afraid to admit when someone is pretty! and he is pretty. No homo obviously..

The week went by quickly, as most did and each night I looked forward to seeing the group of kids again. For whatever reason, while I was studying scripture that week the main boy never left my mind. I knew I'd never work up the courage to say hello or wave but I still kept him in my mind.

Each night I hoped maybe they'd look up, maybe one of them would see a kid quietly observing from his window, and maybe they'd wave or say hello or even ask him to join.

And on the third night, I guess someone had answered my mental prayer.

As always, as soon as I heard the yelling and laughter I opened my window and watched, smiling to myself as the nightly breezed brushed by my face and the kids came running into the street. I sighed as I rested my chin on my arms, taking in each kid and making a mental note to who was in the group today and who didn't show up.

Thankfully as always, he was there. 

I watched quietly as normal and watched them have their fun before they decided to move along not too much later. I ran my fingers through my hair before sitting up again, going to close my window and call it a night.

But right as I reached for it, I caught his eye. 

It was completely accidental! I swear!

I felt my face heat up as we kept eye contact, a small grin slowly growing on his face. I rubbed my neck nervously, looking away for a moment and trying to collect myself before quickly looking back. He nodded towards me and threw his hand up in a small wave before skating off with his crowd.

I slowly raised my hand to wave back but by then he was gone, they all were, and I was left alone in my empty room, with my racing thoughts. 

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For the next few days, I was ecstatic. I rethought the events of that night throughout the whole day and I have to admit, it was making it harder to memorize my list of bible verses.

And for the next few nights, he waved to me. Each night I caught him glancing up and each night we would exchange a small wave and a smile. It was nice.

You probably think I'm ridiculous for thinking about it so much but hey, it was the most social interaction I have had in a longggg time, and it wasn't even that social. To you it may seem lame and boring but to me, it was thrilling. 

On the sixth night, he looked up at my window like our new usual and one of his friends seemed to notice. They chatted amongst themselves for a moment before the kid turns my window and points. 

"HEY KID" the girl shouted, her blonde hair pulled back into a messy ponytail before she crossed her arms against her chest. "COME ON DOWN HERE!" she smirked before I noticed the boy glaring at her, mumbling a "be nice.."

I froze up, I could feel everyones eyes up on my window now before I pointed to myself, "m-me..?" I asked.

The boy nodded and turned his eyes up to me last, a small smile on his face while his hand gestured me down, "yeah man come on down.." he nodded again to reassure me since I was very hesitant. 

I turned to make sure my bedroom door was closed before letting out a sigh. There was a fire escape ladder outside my window so I guess the odds were in my favor. I quickly moved to grab a jacket, slipping it on before slowly moving my legs out of my window, making my way down the ladder.

"What are you doing Noah.." I thought to myself as I shook my head a bit, hoping everyone had gone back to doing their thing instead of staring at me. My legs were shaking as I reached the ground. I paused before planting my feet on the ground and looking up to where my room was. Wow.. I really did that...

Not even a few seconds later I felt a hand on my shoulder, causing me to jump before I turned around, my face suddenly inches away from his. 

"AJ.." he stated plainly with a nod, his hand out for me to shake. I nodded quickly and lightly gripped his hand, shaking it a bit as I kept my eyes down,

"I'm N-Noa.." I paused and cleared my throat, looking up before trying again, "Noah.." I smiled slightly and noticed his smile grow. He dropped my hand and stuck his hands in his pockets.

I turned to the rest of the kids standing there, all watching our conversation intently before AJ spoke up again,

 "Nice to meet you Noah, your window has a nice view.."