my beloved (/≧▽≦)/

𝖏𝖚𝖇𝖎𝖑𝖊𝖊 𝖑𝖎𝖓𝖊.

TW!!: mentions of suicidal thoughts

'There's a reason London puts barriers on the tube line'

how i wish the barriers weren't there. it would be so easy just to , end it all and no one would know.

i could see the blinding lights getting closer and closer, i couldn't control myself . i felt myself inch closer to the tracks slowly.

the train was getting closer . and so was i . without thinking i started running. i was so close.

*thud*

i felt my back slam onto the ground as the train stopped and people got on .

" Dylan what the hell were you trying to do !" someone shouted dragging me up off the cold ground .

" i-" tears fell down my cheeks , what was i trying to do.

" Dylan?" my head was swirling .

" Olga !" i snapped back into focus

" what did you call me?"

" i didn't call you anything , someone was shouting olga ." i realised it was ranboo who had pulled me back .the tears kept on falling down my cheeks . " Dylan"

'Dylan?'

' come on Dylan wake up!'

' Dylan enough'

' i promised Wilbur i'd look after you'

' please wake up '

" go away ranboo ." i grumbled flipping to face the wall .

" Dylan i ordered pizza , i don't know how to work british appliances . "

" not hungry ."
" Dylan you need to eat this isn't a game . "

" i'm just not hungry."

" you haven't eaten since breakfast yesterday "
" not a big deal."

" just come chat to me , niki's arriving tomorrowwith Wilbur , they're waiting out the bad weather at a ' travlelodge?' Wilbur said it's those hotels with the singing puppets ad , anyways i don't feel like sitting alone in your living room ."

i felt his hands scoop me up from under my armpits like you do with a cat , i just hung limply in the air . i then felt ranboo try and wrap me around him like a koala but i had no motivation .

" come- come on Dylan you have to cooperate here-" he gasped out of breath from trying to wrap me around him . i slowly wrapped my arms and legs around him and allowed him to carry me through to the living room , ranboo set me down on the couch handing me a glass of orange juice before sitting down next to me with his plate of pizza .

" what do you wanna watch?" i said taking the xbox controller out of the dark depths of the side of my couch .

" um, luca?"

" the Italian gay boys!" i smiled launching Disney plus.

" why is your name ' ranboo killer?'" ranboo said taking a bite of his pizza .

" why not?"

" you and tommy are very alike ."

" i am better than that silly little man , i bet he isn't a real blonde."

" he isn't very little but ok."

" enjoy your movie ranboo . i'm going back to bed ." i said getting up .

" no you're not!" ranboo exclaimed wrapping his arms around my waist yanking me back onto the couch leaving me no way of escaping .