Smile In Pain ( Jungkook x BTS )

Trip Part 1 :(

Chapter 5 

"I want to be like water. I want to slip through fingers, 

but hold up a ship."

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~A week had passed ~

The night before the trip...

Jungkook POV~

I don't have enough money, so I just find the cheap suitcase and bought it. I am excited to go on this trip with hyungs. 

"I am excited,"  I said.

I smile and this time is not a painful smile but a real smile. Suddenly, the voices came and ruin my mood.

" Don't forget to bring your favorite razor to the trip. Who knows you might need it. " the voices said.

" Why should I bring that, I want to enjoy with the hyungs. " I said.

The voices disappeared. I continue packing my things. Then, I went to the bathroom to take my toothbrush, toothpaste, and my skincare. Suddenly, I saw a razor. I think should I bring it or not. At last, I decided to bring the razor to the trip too. I went to my bed and lay on it.

" I hope this gonna be a fun trip for me. " I said slowly and closed my eyes.

----------Tomorrow--------------

8:30 AM

I woke up because of the alarm. I closed the alarm and get ready. I went to the bathroom and take shower. Then, I went to my closet and wear long-sleeved clothes since I still need to cover the cut on my wrists. 

I went downstairs and bring along my suitcase. I saw the hyungs were eating in the kitchen. I just went to sit in the living room, waiting for them to finish eating. 

" Jungkook, come here. Let's eat together ." Seokjin Hyung called me.

I looked at him and wanted to stand up until I heard Taehyung Hyung and Hoseok Hyung said something.

"Hyung, why you ask him to eat with us? I don't want, you know because of him my appointment is canceled. Just because of this stupid trip. " Taehyung said.

"True, not only Taehyung, mine, and the others also have to cancel the appointment too." Hoseok Hyung said.

"Hey, enough. He can hear you. " Seokjin Hyung said.

" Let him hear it, isn't it enough we celebrate his birthday last week? " Hoseok Hyung said.

I heard every single thing they said. I feel hurt and sad. So, only I who excited about this trip. If they hate it so much. Why do they need to agree?

"Nevermind, Hyung. I already full. I'm just gonna sit here. " I smiled.

The voices are back.

" See, I already said, you need that razor. They hate you so much. Enjoy your trip. " The voices said sarcastically.

I ignore the voices and luckily they finished eating. They went out to the car. I wait for everyone to get out of the house. They didn't get into the car yet. 

"Can't you walk faster?" Namjoon Hyung yelled.

I was surprised when I heard him yelling. I run quickly towards the car and sit in the back seat. No one sits with me. Along the journey to Jeju, I was always alone while the others were chatting happily and laughing together. I look at them and smiled.

"At least they happy right now," I said and smile in pain.

.JEJU ISLAND.

We had arrived at the homestay, they didn't book the hotel cause it too expensive. They went inside the house and choose their room. In this house, there was only 3 room. They choose their roommate and room. I just wait there like an idiot. I know they will never share a room with me, so I put my suitcase in the living room. I will sleep on the couch. We arrived quite late, so today we just take a rest. Suddenly, I remembered Jimin Hyung said something inside the car.

~Flashback~

"Did he bring a suitcase? We only gonna stay here for 3 days. Why with the big bag?  " Jimin Hyung laughed.

"Keep quiet. He will hear you. " Seokjin Hyung said while looking at me. 

Then, suddenly he laughed and the others laugh too.

I pretend to sleep. I heard everything they said about me. 

~End Flashback~

I lay on the couch and looked at my suitcase.

" I bought that suitcase with my own money. They made fun of it. " I said to myself.

The pain that I felt right now is really painful. 

" You bring that thing, right? Just do it." the voices said.

I try to ignore the voices but I just feel really hurt. I went to my suitcase and take the razor and went to the bathroom.

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Preview for next Chapter.

" This trip is stupid. I try to enjoy this trip, but I just cannot. You make this trip became worse. I FUCKING HATE YOU. " Yoongi Hyung yelled.

He throws a few things that have on the table. He came towards me and pushed me until I fell to the floor. He kicked me and abused me. The other hyung just ignore and continue to eat the food that does not fall from the table.

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Finished with Chapter 5 of Smile In Pain.

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