Leviathan: A Persona 5 Goro Akechi x Amamiya Ren Original

12: Why?

(Author-chan here!
The tides continue to turn! Watch out for this chapter, it's definitely a cornerstone of the entire series, that's going to bring everything to the entire crux of the story, finally. If you had questions about how, and what, Leviathan truly is - this chapter is going to bring it all home for you.

This chapter has been the original idea that started Leviathan for me in the first place, so I truly hope you enjoy it. I've been holding this pivotal moment in my head for quite some time now! (It's so nice to finally be able to share it with you lol.)

Just a quick note! There will be a flashback later in this chapter that is within Ren's mind. However, to give you more insight, it is Ren's idea of how he believes Akechi would act. That's why, though it's in Ren's head, it's written via Akechi's P.O.V :3

Enjoy! And feel free to comment. I'd love to hear what you think, and what you prophesize, will happen next!
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(Ren's P.O.V)

 I waded through the desert without any water, for what felt like ages.

Once Maruki was no longer a threat to me, I was completely free. I had powers that surpassed the Ruler's before me; I had endless possible victims to toy with, and I had all the time I could ever ask for.

Yet...of all the things I could want, the one thing I was still missing, was him.

Days turned into weeks, and weeks turned into months. I visited every Jazz bar, every Darts Live, every onsen and convenience store and library. I went to his school, to his apartment, and even stepped foot into the Diet Building with a now faceless, no name Prime Minister.

But Akechi was no where to be found.

I found myself constantly questioning. What kind of Ruler, who yearns in distortion for only his partner, can live without the one desire he truly craves? Whats the point in having powers, if the one thing you wanted them for, ceases to exist?

If I've inherited the true strength that can erase suffering....why can't I erase my own?

Why.....why can't I find him?

I would be lying if I told myself that the continuous yet fruitless search for the Ace Detective didn't warrant me more pain and corruption. My heart eventually began to twist into a version of myself I never knew I could form. The loneliness I felt, being an everlasting being without so much as a companion, was a curse that no divine reign could ever overcome.

After I'd attained everything, all of a sudden, I had nothing.

Was this my punishment? Was the councillor's last stand to completely snatch away everything I had worked for? Was this the consequence of disregarding making a decision on reality?

Because..now, it had become the worst option I could've hoped to have.

Maybe....maybe I was just too selfish. 

Maybe..instead of making my own option, I really should have chosen.

But all I wanted was your happiness. Where....where did I go wrong? At what point did I lose that?

Eventually, whatever hope and optimism I had, turned to grains of sand that disintegrated at my feet. I stopped feeling. I stopped caring. I was constantly cold, and a callous, deranged attitude was all that remained of  me now.

I had already gotten my revenge on Maruki, but yet, still, his deeds of altruistic tyranny continued to effect my life in so many ways. Akechi was completely missing from this reality. It felt like he, for some reason, wasn't even in this country anymore.