Lover

Bad Day

You slam your door, switch on your phone, and FaceTime Abigail.

She smiles at you straight away. "Hey you bitch, hows Duncan? Does Cecilia like him?"

"Nope. Gabriella does, and guess what! He likes her back."

Abigails expression changes. "That little shit! I always knew she was a hoe. She's eleven and already has a belly piercing, that's so fucking weird, she's not even meant to be in seventh grade anyway. She should stick with her fifth grade boyfriends for now, ugly cunt."

"That's exactly what I thought, too. I'm so mad."

"Have you confronted her about it yet?" She asks.

"Nah. Eh, fuck it, I'll do it right now."

You open Snapchat and start texting Gabriella.

YOU
you know instead of lying to me about not liking duncan you could've told me the truth

GABRIELLA
i was scared youd be mad

YOU
well now im even more mad 

GABRIELLA
it's not my problem he doesn't like you so stay out of my business

YOU
why cant you just explain to me why you lied

GABRIELLA
its not my fault you couldn't pull him

YOU
its not my fault you're a slut

You start laughing and show Abigail you're conversation. "Ha! She blocked me. That's so embarassing. You and Abigail both start laughing until your lungs hurt.

"Shit, Abs, half my class is in a Houseparty right now! You have to join, we need to make fun of Gabriella and Duncan."

"Duncan isn't even that hot. He speaks fifty languages and probably watches hentai and that's fucking... yuck." You laugh at Abigails comment, knowing it's probably true.

You and your best friend join the Houseparty and she starts making fun of Gabriella.

"Hey Gayzie did you peg Duncan earlier?"

You laugh at Abigails nicknames for the Gabriella and she starts talking. "What..." Then, she scrunches her face up as the realization hits her that she's just being messed with. She makes a bitchy expression. "Wow Grace, you really brought your friends to gang up on me just because you're jealous of me? Yikes. Also Duncan thinks your ugly."

Duncan laughs and your heart shatters. One of your classmates, Weston, is dancing to JoJo Siwa's hit song "Boomerang" in the background. Weston is basically the class clown, and doesn't give a single fuck about what the teachers think. He gets along with everyone, including you, really well, but the situation going on right now brings you back to when you first decided you liked Duncan.

It was only your third day of school, so this happened a month ago. It was your first ever lesson of Woodworks, one of both yours and Duncan's favorite subjects because you basically just got to mess around and build random shit out of wood. No one in the class knew each other really well, so Weston had assumed you were a TikTok obsessed Charli fanpage, you know, one of those girls. He started making fun of you, and after a while it started pissing you off. Duncan had taken a disliking to Weston too, and you spent the entire lesson talking shit about him. All of a sudden, he got really close to your face. He smirked at you and said, "He can't be talking shit about you, he's the unfunniest person I've ever seen. Seriously, I don't think he's made a single person laugh this week." You were completely shaken. He was so sweet, and funny, and interesting. He made your heart beat rise like crazy. But that was then.

This is now. And now makes you want to crawl in a hole and die. 

By the time you had snapped out of your daydream Abigail had left the Houseparty and hung up on FaceTime to go eat dinner, and Duncan now had you blocked on everything. You decided to give up for the day and put your headphones on, listen to some music, and just bawl your eyes out. You felt completely shattered. You felt like your heart was being ripped to pieces and stomped on. You trusted Gabriella, and you truly loved Duncan. But now he didn't want you because Gabriella had stolen him away from you. You couldn't help but still love him and hope that this was just a very bad dream. But this was all real, it was very real. You had lost Duncan to Gabriella, and to make matters worse, he now hated you. You were completely heartbroken. You sat up in bed and wiped the tears from your eyes.  You rocked gently back and forth to some of your favorite songs, to take your mind off what had happened. The song "Sparks" by Coldplay came on and you couldn't help but sing along. As you sang, sobbing, you almost couldn't even breathe, that's how hard you were crying. You were in complete agony and agony was speaking. It hurt so bad, you couldn't bear it. You hated love. You lay down in bed and covered your eyes with your pillow to hopefully shut out the pain. "Just give me a minute to breathe. Then everything will be fine." you said to yourself quietly. Why did everything have to be so hard? Your entire life, love had been so difficult for you, no matter what. This was no different. Everyone around you had it so easy. They never had to give love a second thought because that's how simple it was for them. But not for you. It just became more and more complicated, over time. There were times when you had thought that there was something special between you and Duncan, however "special" that may have been. You hated having feelings, and when you did have them, they were just in your head. Your head was so full of love that you couldn't even feel it. So you just ignored the feelings until they left. Hopefully they'd leave soon... you couldn't deal with this pain much longer.