Under The Moonlight

Part 6.

Jungkook POV

I got out of the shower, drying my hair with the towel. Taehyung left me dumbfounded and doubting myself with his words back at Jimin's apartment. Am I really oblivious to my own feelings?

However, that's not my concern right now. My concern is Y/N. She still has not called me back or responded to any of my texts. Why is she behaving so strangely? Is she not feeling well? Is she perhaps in danger?

I anxiously took my phone from the bed and dialed Y/N's number, for the hundredth time this day. Making up my mind to barge into her apartment if she doesn't answer this time.
A wave of relief rushed in my veins when she finally picked up my call.

"Hey... Jungkookie." Her voice always had a calming effect on me, but why does my stomach feel weird? I even got slight shivers hearing her voice.

"Y/N, where were you the whole day?" I basically started lashing out at her. "Why weren't you picking up any of my calls, and you didn't even see my texts? Are you okay?", My voice laced with worry.

"Ughh.. too many questions." My lips curved into a smile, imagining her rolling her eyes on me.
"I was working on my project for the whole day in the library, and my phone was silent."

"Okay but what about after you return home? It's almost evening Y/N, you don't stay at the uni for this long." I inquired, clearly not satisfied by her explanation.

"I umm... I didn't check my phone." Y/N awkwardly chuckled, and an unusual calmness radiated from her voice, the same one from the day I got asked out by her.

"How's Jimin?" She asked, promptly changing the topic. 

"He's recovering. We brought him back home today." I shrugged away the pang in my heart.

"Oh, that's great. Give him my wishes... Do you have anything else? I am actually kinda busy."

"Do you want to hang out? Our movie night got interrupted the day before." I let my thoughts take over my mouth. I didn't get to see her for a week because of the trip, and our movie night was ruined due to all the hassle. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss her.

"Actually... I have an important project to be completed, Jungkook-ah, maybe next time?"

"But... " A non-existent sigh left my lips. "Never mind. Make sure to have your dinner." I gave up, not wanting to force her into spending time with me. Not when she said she was busy.

"Okay, see you. Good night."

"Good night."

I sighed and sat down on the bed, already missing her. I leaned onto the headboard, thinking about Taehyung's words. What if he is right, and I am, in fact, the roadblock to my own feelings? What if Y/N was not my best friend in the first place? Wouldn't I be willing to give her a chance?
Give us a chance?

No doubt I would like to have a relationship with Y/N if she wasn't my best friend. For sure. In fact, I have even had some moments when I have thought about loving her as a man. I just... I didn't reckon with the idea. If only I had thought about it a little earlier, I wouldn't be so confused at the moment, and she wouldn't be hurting. Dumbass.

Y/N has all the qualities that I would ask for in my girlfriend. She is beautiful, strong, kind, caring, and has a loving heart. She even has feelings for me and cares about me a lot. What else would I want in my partner?

Moreover, we have this strong bond built over the years where we can understand each other even with no words. We are comfortable sharing anything and everything and are exceptionally good at communicating all our thoughts and feelings without any problem.