DIL SE DIL TAK

Chapter - 1

Sana POV: -

I wiped off my tears and stood up . I saw my red and puffy eyes which had swelled up .
The clock showed 4 , it's been two hours of wheeping. I dont know when my eyelashes got heavy and I slept. I washed my face with the cold water and looked at myself in the mirror . Now Atleast I look a little presentable. 
Taking a deep breath , I made my way downstairs .
I looked around but mom wasn't there . She might be in her room .
I drank some water as my throat was thirsty due to intense wheeping .
Though , I was in no mood to pacify mom but I decided to , because I had no other option with me . I can't see her sad .

"Saniyaaa?"

Mom's words made me return back to reality . I turned around and saw the pale face of my mom , Her eyes were red and puffy and had swelled up just like mine . Ahhhhhh!!!!!! I think we Mother - Daughter are same , whenever we cry , our eyes swell up and become puffy . I slowly,  taking baby steps made my way towards my mom and kept my both Hands on her shoulder .

"Mum ? Why did uh cry ?"

I asked slowly breaking the silence . This was it , Tears flowed down from her eyes as rivers .

"Mum ...please stop crying "

I hugged her tightly and slowly patted her back . We stayed there , in the same position for sometime and later we pulled away when she got calmed. 

"Saniya !!!!! How could I not cry? I am responsible for your condition...I m the one who forced uh to get married to that jerk . Uh were not ready for it .... You wanted to pursue your dreams .... you wanted to be independent....but I didnt listen to you and took the worst decision  of my life "

Tears were still flowing down her eyes. 

"I knw mom  ... getting married at so early age wasn't the right decision  ....but uh r not at fault mum .... you just wanted me to settle in my life ...you just wanted to complete my family ... you wanted me to be happy ... your intentions were pure mumma...so pls stop blaming yourself .... and I m sorry ...I ditched you ...but the truth is that now ... I dont Want to get married again ....  I hope you understand ... "

"Saniya....child ....pls .... dont do this ... uh deserve someone..for me just give it a try my child .... pls bacha "

Mom's eyes pleaded me to take a further step , to look around the world,  to look for my soulmate , my companion but honestly , deep down I have lost all the Hopes... I have lost all the Hopes of finding someone who would understand me , love me .
I am afraid,  afraid to get hurt again , afraid to be broken again but for my mom I have to do it . I can't see her like this . I know , although she doesn't say it but I know she's very tensed for me . Last Month , The family doctor informed me regarding Her depression . I can't take any risk . I dont want her to suffer more so for her I will give it a try .

"Okay mom ... if uh r insisting so much .... then ...for you ...I will give it a try .... "

"Really ???? Promise me Saniya????!!!!!!" She said her eyes glued with happiness .

I kept my hand on her hand and nooded my head positively. 

"Butttt!!!!"
I could see the happiness fading away from her face .