A P O C A P U S S Y L I P S//Louis Partridge

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This might sound selfish but one of the things I miss about being friends with Louis was being able to stay at his house. Now I was stuck in this shit hole again. I miss everything about that silly brunette boy. His laugh, his smile, his eyes, his floppy, messy hair, how we would watch movies together with his sisters, how he would give me his clothes, how we would go to sleep on opposite ends of the bed but wake up tangled in each other's arms. I hadn't even realized that he had gotten me to eat. I felt so comfortable around him. Like I could say or do anything and he would still love me for who I was. He never paid attention or brought up my eating habits. He would make me food whether I actually ate it or not. He lightly pushed me until I was back to normal. Or at least as normal as I can be. But now he's gone and it's all my fault. I walked through my dark and cluttered house. I ran my hands along the ripped wallpaper. How did my life manage to get this bad? I looked into the mirror. Was this truly who I was? Ever since I started eating again, I've gained a lot of weight. Some might say that's good since I was severely malnourished before. Look at Sky. She was skinny. No matter how many pounds I drop, it will never be enough.

I refuse to give up on mine and Louis' relationship. I thought for a moment. Where would Louis go? I thought back to the first time we hung out. When he had to tutor me.

The airport!

I swung open the door and dashed out. The airport wasn't far. Maybe two miles. I had gotten used to long walks and runs since I never really drove. I started walking, lightly humming to myself until I reached the doors of the airport. I ran up the stairs and sat on the bench we sat on the first time we went here. I knew he wouldn't be here but part of me was still disappointed.

                                        Mazy

                                        I'm at the airport
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                                        Lou, please answer

                                        Me

Lou <3

What do you want?

                                        Mazy

                                        I just want things to

                                        Go back to normal

Lou <3

Don't you get it? Things will never be

"Back to normal" between us!

                                        Mazy

                                        I just can't believe

                                        You're letting our

                                        Relationship go that

                                        Easily

Lou <3

You're not the one who

Got rejected

                                        Mazy

                                        I promise I do

                                        Understand. Better

                                        Than you might think