CHANGES HURTS[🍀A story of my own life🍀]

WISPERS

They think they know, but they have no idea.
They say their daughter is strong.

My pillow knows me better then them.

You don't know pain until you're staring at yourself in the mirror with tears streaming down your face and you're begging yourself to just hold on and be strong.

That is pain.

But that's okay.

" Heyy...isn't that suma? "
" Yeah yeah that girl. "
" Dude, I don't know why she wanna look like a boy I mean, she's a girl and girls should act like girls shouldn't they? "
" Yeah dude I was going to say the same thing. I wanna know just why. I never wanted to be a girl. Fucking crossdresser..."
" Yeah I know right, such a copycat. Hey! Tell me do you wanna crossdress like her huh??"
" NO dude!! What are you saying?! Ewww! "
*laughter*

".........."

It hurts, but I can handle this pain.

" What does she thinks she looks like?"
" She looks like a wierdo!"
" I ain't never seen a wierdo like her."

It's...It's not a big deal...
I can handle this too.
I can handle your hate.

" I wish that I could see your distorted face as you're forced to open your eyes!"

And I will not answer with the same venom.

" Please don't tell me you'll wear that."
" You look ugly on those!"

I will pity you instead.

"Freak"

Because I carry it well, dont mean it ain't heavy.

I didn't wanted to sound too dramatic '•~•
Im alright now :)