The last Phoenix

"How you could lie to me"

"How they could lied to me things like this"-i thought,looking at a phoenix necklace which i recived from my mother."Sometnig bothering oyu,tell me what it is"-Loki said,hugging me from back,placing his nead on my uncovered shoulder."Lies,how they could lie to me,they told me that my mother was killed by enemy,not killed by her own brother and they told me that Orion died on a childbirth,omg my head hurts so much"-i said,placing my hands on my head,still trying to process the truth.He took me in his arms,gently kissing my forehead and caressing my hair."Can we stay at Asgard for some time,please,i don't wanna see their faces"-i sobbed in his chest,he looked at me with red eyes."Why are you crying,babe,what's wrong"-i asked him with concern look,he sigh and kneel to the ground,taking my hands in his,gently kissing my wrists.

"I need to tell you something,but please don't leave me"-he said,trying to settle his breathing,please god i hope it's not what i was thinking."My love,my precious dove,my queen,i don't know how to say this to you,but i'm a frost giant"-he said with hiss at the end.I was looking at him with wide eyes and then he transformed into his true form.His pale skin became a blue like sky,his shiny blue eyes became a red like a blood."Please don't look at me,i'm the monster,just leave me"-he stand up and turned around,disgusted by himself.I took his arm and pulled him to me,placing his head on my chest,in that moment i felt little tears escaping his sad eyes."Why you don't leave me,i'm the monster which other people tell their children about the night,i don't deserve to be loved"-he sobbed,his voice was dismal,i kneel to the ground beside him and took his face in a kiss full of nothing but pure love."Stop.telling.that.stupid.things."-i said,during the kiss,his jotun form was still there,on the light,i clearly saw his features,he is so perfect."You're the most perfect man who i ever met,you don't need to be disgusted by yourself,you're absolutely handsome my love,i would never leave you"-i said,kissing his head and then he transformed in his asgardian form,i'll miss that blue skin.He looked at me with these baby blue eyes,hugging me tightly."You,you l-love m-ee"-he asked,still snifing,i smiled at him and noded.He took me by arm and kissed me with a such passion,which i never felt before i met him.We pulled away,and looked at eachother,sparkles of passion were in air which was mixed with a scent of Loki's perfume.He lowered his head to my neck,placing not so innosent kiss,whispering in my ear"you don't know how much i love you and thankful because you stayed with me,i don't know what i would do without you by my side",i took his face in my palms and kissed his cheek.

"Loki,i want to repeat our first night as couple"-i said and he brings me closer to him,staring at me surprised."You really want this"-he asked,again hoping i'll reject him,i noded and our lips collided.He murmured something which i can't regonize."What did you say"-i ask,looking at his eyes which were filled with lust,"i placed a silencing magic,so they can't hear us,and invisible magic,so they can't interrupt us"-he said with a grin on his face.I took his attire from him,trying not to destry the material.When i took the last piece from his upper body,i was surprised by his torso,his muscles were so fit,damn everything was fit on him."You're very handsome,don't forget that"-i said jokely,he took the last hairpin,and unziped my dress,leaving me in my undergarments.He turned me around,looking at me with an aww,he blushed,"you're blushing,i'm wondering why"-i laughed and he gently move my curls,giving him acsses to my neck."You have a beautiful body,don't be ashamed by yourself"-he whispered in my ear,taking me in his arms in bridal style and placing me on a soft,black beadsheets of his bed.He lowered his head to my neck,placing small,passionate kisses,slowly lowering down and i left other to your imagination.

After passionate moment,we were in eachother's arms,tangled in emerald green,fluffy blanket,looking at eachother's eyes."That was nice"-i said,rubbing his cheek,but he seemed distant."What's wrong,Loki,tell me"-i said and he became sad.I straightened up ,resting my back on a headboard of the bed,tooking him in my arms,realxing him to open up to me."Whatever it is,you can tell me,and don't worry,i'm here"-i said,rubbing his back softly."Please,when i tell you this,don't think that i'm a bad person"-he said with concern voice,i was more interesed to what he'll tell me."As i said,you can trust me,now tell me what it is"-i ask,relaxing my grip on him,he propped himself on one elbow and with other hand,he caress my face."It's about Analleta,it was long,long ago,before i find out that you're alive,i went with Thor in a local tavern,to relieve pain and i ended up in bed with Analleta"-he said with hiss at the end,what the fuck he told me now.I was stunned and i felt a bang in my heart,why does this hurts so much,in a moment of weakness,i started to tear up."Love,are you okay"-he asked,trying to wipe fallen tears but i took his hand and stopped him."How long you slept with her"-i asked,hurted,knowing that the love of my life slept with a woman who poisoned me."The last time i slept with her was before i goes to the Earth,i swear"-he replied,with shaking voice,he's on the verge of tears.I wrap other blanket around me and get up from the bed to the balcony.Here,on Asgard is winter,snow doesn't stop to fall,everything around was white,excpect of some trees who were green during the all four seasons.I was bringed to reality when i felt two warm hands around my waist and warm breath on my shoulders."Why you didn't tell me about her and you before"-i asked,still hurted,i heard a snifing behind me,he cry.I turned around and saw him with tears,he felt like idiot,i can feel it."I didn't tell you because i didn't know how to tell,please i'm begging for your forgivness"-he said nad kneel,leaning his head to my stomach.I kneel to level myself with him and hugged him around the shoulders."It's okay,you didn't know that i survived,please if you need to tell me other secrets,don't be scared,i won't leave you"-i said and we headed to bed,hugging eachother.In the middle of the night i heard a cry and when i looked at a crib,it was my firstborn,Ares,i was thinking what's wrong.I took him in my arms and sat on the nearest chair."Sh,shh,shh,it's mommy,son,i'm here"-i whispered to him,trying to relax him,but in vain,then i rememberd a lullaby which my mother sang to me when i was little."I Stormsvarte fjell,jeg vandern alene,over isbreer tar jeg meg frem"-i sang to him,then i heard someone singing with me,"I eplehagen står møyen den vene,og synger:når kommer du hjem"-Loki ended the lullaby and i placed Ares back in a crib."You know the lullaby"-i asked sursprised and he noded."Frigga used to sang me that when i was little,god it was beautiful"-he said,colliding our lips in one lovely kiss.He took me in his arms,gently placing me on the bed and we fell asleep in the warm of our bodies,not knowing what the morning will bring to us.

Translation of the lullaby("in stormblack mountains,i wander alone,over icy glaciers i make my way;in the apple garden the kind maid stands and sing:when do you come home")

Next morning i was woked up by Loki shouting from the matters,he was in sweat,his breathing was hard,he had a nighmare."What happened,love,hey look at me and breath"-i said,he was terrified."I dreamed a one person,i don't know who it was but he killed you and the boys,i was helpless and..."-he break in the cry,i hugged him,whispering in his ear"my love,i'm here,healty and strong,i will not die soon,see,the boys are okay,you don't need to worry,it was just a bad dream,i'm here and i'm not leaving you".He looked at me and kissed my forehead,"thank you,darling,i feel better"-he said with his famous smile."Come on,mr Laufeyson,we need to meet with your parents,get up"-i teased him,i know how he hate to nudge him.

I settled dow and when i looked in the mirros,i shed a small tear,i look like my mother."Is something bothering you,my queen,you're sad again"-he asked,rubbing my back gently."It's nothing my love,you don't need to worry,let's go,they're expecting us"-i said and we headed to the main chamber.When we arrived i saw them,my lying family."What are you doing here"-i asked,trying to hide the rage,my grandmother looked at me and shed a tear,what is going on with her."You look like your..."-she tried to say but i stopped her."Don't you dare to talk about her,you were protecting your daughter's killer.HOW YOU COULD FUCKING LIE TO ME"-i yelled at her,and then my uncle appeared beside her."What is he doing here"-i asked,angry and disgusted,god i want to kill them."I came here to apology to you,my dear,i didn't want to kill your...","DON'T YOU DARE TO TALK ABOUT HER,YOU KILLED HER IN A COLD BLOOD,YOU DON'T THINK WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF YOU KILL HER,WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO ME,BUT YOU FUCKING DON'T CARE"-i yelled and with help of blood manipulation,i make him to fell on the ground."Alena,stop,he's your family like us"-my aunt said and my eyes became blue,i started to feel something strange."How you could to kill her,i became an orphan without a mother,for me you represented a braveness when i was a little,but now i'm disgusted to be your niece"-i said,making hared preassure on his blood and then something overwhelmed me and i let him,a fire started to appear around me."What's going on"-i asked conecrn,"you're transforming in a phoenix"-was all i heard before a fire burned me to the ash.After couple of the moments,with elp of the resurrection,i became a human again,first person i saw was my love,Loki."You scared me to hell"-he said hugging me tightly,when he pulled,he looked at me surprised."What"-i asked,and he turned me to the mirror.I have two colored eyes,what the fuck.One eye was brown and other was blue."What happened to me"-i asked,Frigga and Odin looked at eachother,then looked at me."You're officaly a phoenix,your transformation is done,congratulations,my dear"-Frigga said and hugged me with the tears of a joy,"congratulation child,use your powers wisely"-Odin said and hugged me.In the evening,king and queen make a celebration because of the unification between Asgard and Vanheim.My transformation was just a begginig,and i hope that after this drama i will find my lost twin brother.

TO BE CONTINUED!!!