//Just Eat// -Måneskin

1. Mirror

Most of my stories have difficult situations which usually mention depression, eating disorder jne. That is just because I wanna spread the mental health awareness and I feel like that makes stories more real and emotionally, because I don't wanna write just about sex and stuff like that. I hope you guys understand and will read these anyway. So this is some random story. I started writing this at 2 a.m, so I'm sorry if it is bad. I'm not sure if I'm gonna keep writing this pls tell me if you guys want me to keep writing this too. (THIS ISN'T STORY ABOUT ETHAN AND YOU) Do you guys want more Damiano or maybe Thomas or Victoria maybe? ;)

-------------Trigger Warning Eating Disorder--------------

You are in the bathroom. You gotta get yourself together, you think. You open your phone to purposely watch how many calories you have eaten today. You have eaten 150 calories. More than yesterday. You open your mouth to scream from sadness, but you can't get words out of your mouth. When you look at the mirror you can see how your cheekbones are showing and the dark circles under your eyes are darker than yesterday. You have totally forgotten that you left the door unlocked. Suddenly you hear the door opening and in panic you throw your phone into the hard floor. Of course the screen is broken, but that is not what you are thinking about.

"Hey, y/n why are you crying?" Ethan says and comes into the bathroom locking the door.

"It is just that, I feel like an outsider. I know you guys can't take me to the band, because I can't play anything, but I don't know why I'm here", you make up a fast excuse which actually isn't that far from the truth, but that is not why you are crying right now. Ethan didn't say anything, he just hugged you for seconds as a friend. After about twenty seconds you pull yourself away and wipe away your tiers as you walk out of the bathroom leaving Ethan alone.

You are supposed to be a strong girl. Without any parents and spending your whole childhood with these idiots (Victoria, Damiano, Ethan and Thomas) people would think that you are strong. That is kind of the image. Damiano is dominating and confident when Victoria is nice and pretty. Thomas is the bad boy and Ethan is just shy. When you are in a close friendship for your whole life everyone picks a role. You can't copy others and there are only a few options.

Damiano became confident after high school and he has always had a dominating and in a good way aggressive personality.

Thomas has been a rebel and bad boy since he started smoking. Yeah, Damiano smokes too, but Thomas started smoking to annoy his parents at first and then it became a habit.

Victoria has always been nice. Nobody knows why. I guess she has realised how it feels to be underestimated and bullied before. She doesn't even want anything back. She just does everything for the sake of being kind and being true to yourself and others, which is very inspiring.

Ethan is a shy boy. He has been bullied too and he can't really speak english which makes me and him talking usually hard, but now he is better at talking.

Only role that is left for you is the yes go girl and you are perfect the way you are- role. It would be fine, but you don't really feel that way. You feel like everyone else is perfect except you. You can thank Maneskin for the fact that you are still alive.