Till Death Do Us Part?

chapter 7

(Felix's pov)

What have I done.

How stupid could I actually be?

I kissed Louis.

Fucking Louis.

I could've kissed anyone, but instead I kissed Louis.

What if he falls in love with me?

I mean, he already did, but what if he falls in love with this version of me?

What if he falls in love with Felix, not knowing Felix is actually his boyfriend who he thought died in a car crash?

What if he falls in love with the person who's actuallt Harry instead of Felix?

He's going to actually hate me.

I mean, ofcourse he is. I've been pretending to be dead for four years now.

But as soon as he will find out, I think I will lose him forever.

I'll probably never hear from him again.

You're probably thinking, now why the hell Harry, would you pretend to be dead?

It's a long long story.

But in the end, I all did it to save myself, and mostly Louis.

'Killing' myself, saved Louis life.

Now, how on earth did I manage to fake a car crash? Easy.

I was planning on leaving Louis. As hard and mean as it all sounds, later on you'll get why. But I wasn't planning on leaving that night. Until, all of the sudden, I was driving on this road. It was almost empty. Sometimes you would drive past another car, but not that much. Then I saw a car on the other side of the road, who was clearly drunk. He got into an accident with the car in front of me. I could have been dead, I said I was, but I wasn't. Not even a little thing happenend to me.

I saw this as one of the only chances I had to escape this complicated love me and Louis had. I called an ambulance, and told them the one who'd passed away was a friend of mine, called Harry Styles. I left my phone at the car that had an accident, so when they would call someone, it would've been on my phone.

Louis was the one to be called.

I drove away.

The pain I felt was indescribable.

It honestly felt like my heart was getting ripped out of my chest.

This was one of the hardest things to do in my entire life.

But I had to do this.

I had to safe Louis.

I had to do all this, because we live in a world where we still can't be ourselves, and people still don't support everyone.

Because of those people, I had to leave the one I loved then, and still love now.

After all those four years.

I still love Him.

Louis.

Now you probably have another question.

Why would you even come close to Louis if you're pretending to be dead?

As I said, I still love him.

I can't live without him.

I just had to see him.

So I tried my best to look nothing like Harry.