Shameful Hearts (BOOK 2)

Forgiveness Is a Start From a Broken Heart

Rebecca's POV

I only went into this to get some closure cause that's what my therapist said, I guess. And why not do something that could get me through all of this? Because let's face it. If there's no progress, none of this shit was going to get resolved.

After graduation, we went over to his place to talk. This was clearly a bad idea once I thought through it, but it wasn't like I had any other choice.

The park was too loud and crowded, Alyssa's place started to smell like sex, and my parents would fucking flip if they saw Chris' face again.

We walked into his apartment and he directed himself straight to the window pane as I took some time to look around.

The place wasn't as bad as I imagined it to be. I expected a small studio as a starter pack, but I guess he came through.

Either he was stealing money from his mother's bank account or he was fucking the landlord. Chris didn't have a working bone in his body that would help him get a job.

I turned to him staring at me with a playful grin on his face, "What?" I asked, arching an eyebrow.

"Come sit." I made my way towards the window pane and sat next to him, crossing my arms and legs.

"Enough with the bullshit. Why are you still here?" I shrugged.

"Honestly? Frankie and I are moving together."

"Pfft! That's bullshit. And I should know."

"What? You don't believe me?"

"Oh, fuck off, Chris. This act, right here, is expired. Alright? Everyone sees through it. And Frankie's not even your type."

"Oh, come on, Becky. You know me. I'm attracted to anything. You said so yourself while you were sucking me off in your parents' bedroom." He chuckled.

"So, you don't care that you're going out with your cousin's ex?"

"Dylan doesn't give a fuck. He's the one who dumped her. Frankie and I fucked a few times over the summer and I caught feelings when I shouldn't have."

"Oh, yeah? What else did you catch?"

He chuckled, showing off that smug grin that always boiled my insides.

"You know how hard I get when you're jealous, but let's retract those claws, kitty-cat. Meow! No, but all jokes aside... I've changed. I've been sober for nine months now and my dad finally got released."

"So I've been told." I sighed.

"Let me guess. Ellie?"

I shook my head, "No. Ashton."

"Yeah, I kinda figured since Ellie's probably throwing her usual hissy fit right now."

"We talked last night. I kinda had to force it out of her. You know how she is."

"After realizing all the crazy shit he did to her, I can't go back there and face him."

"You tried to get this motherfucka out."

"To better our family. Not to destroy it. I've come way too far. After you left Wisconsin, I fell into depression for months. I didn't eat, I didn't sleep... all I could think about was what went wrong between us."

"My parents made a decision and I had no choice but to follow through with it. But to be fair, you were also being a fucking creep."

"Yeah, cause I didn't want to lose you. Every single day I felt like you were slipping away. I was scared. You were the only person I had left."