Close to you // dreamnotfound

5. Dream With Me

Dream's POV

"Uh.. Honestly?" I replied, cautiously, not understanding what I just walked myself into.

"Yes, Dream. Honestly. As honest as you can. I'm sorry if that was kind of lame. I'm just curious how you feel about us." George replied, sincerely.

"George you already know that I love you. You're my best friend and I wouldn't want it any other way." I'm walking on eggshells now. I feel like one wrong word and I'm done for, I would lose him if I don't pick the right words to say.

I can't afford to lose him right now, or at all. I'd lose my sanity if he was to ever walk out of my life, I'm not sure how to process this right now.

I'm tapping my fingers on my desk where my PC set up laid peacefully on. I'm nervous at what's going to come out of his mouth next, what words are going to speed through to my ears.

Is it what I want to hear? Maybe it's just him confessing how much he appreciates our friendship, because why else would he feel the same as I do?

"I just wanted to make sure we were on the same page, I love you so much Dreamy." George replied, sounding innocently.

"I'm glad that we're on the same page too, Gogy."

My heart begins to break at the sound of George not sharing the same feelings as I do towards him. A thousand thoughts and feelings run through my body like I'm just an open doorway of come and go memories. I can't help but start to choke on my words, I'm sobbing now. There's no way that George wasn't going to expect something to not be wrong, it was impossible.

"Dream." He said, under his breath slowly, almost like a small whisper.

"Y-yeah?" I choked again, stumbling on my words. I can't breath now.

"Are you okay? You've been off for the last couple of months and I'm not sure why, but I just want to see if you're okay." George asked.

"I'm not okay Gogy, but I don't want to talk about it. It's just really difficult to explain."

"Do you think it'll be different when I come to Florida? Maybe it'll be easier to tell me face to face rather than behind a screen?"

"Maybe. We'll see George. I'm not sure how I'll feel when you get here."

A pause of hesitation transmitted through our call and I wasn't sure if I regretted my response to him or not. It was too late to take it back now, he knows this isn't like me.

"Good or bad?" George asked, after a long pause.

"I guess we'll have to find out when you come to Florida in the next few weeks." I replied, boldly.

We both slightly laughed under our breaths, comforting each other without actually even realizing it. It was like everything leading up to this was meant to be, we were suppose to go through all these things to meet each other here.

This vacation he's taking here could make or break us, which was already nerve wrecking.

"I can't wait to see this hot guy you've been hiding behind a screen for the last 6 years, Dreamy."

My face grew hot. He flirted with me without even realizing the damage he's done.

"Yeah right, you wouldn't even know what to do with a guy like me."

"Oh, yeah?"

"Yeah, idiot."

"Dream I'm getting tired, can I just go to sleep? I want to get off Discord and FaceTime you on my phone, you don't have to turn your camera on, but if it helps, I don't mind staying on call with you all night."