although i've been lost ever since i was a child
i never considered myself so
i was blinded
following all the instructions society arranged for me
i thought i was where i needed to be
it wouldn't be til 2017
that i finally began to see
i fell in love with a fellow broken soul
i could see all the cracks in between
his laugh and smiles that he used as a coverup
i was no better than he
used strength as makeup
it was easy for him to wipe off
i wanted to fix him
he just broke me
almost beyond repair
and as i sat in my despair
i saw all the cracks that were already there
i fell deep into depression
4 years later and it still remains in my possession
