feeling lonely surrounded by people
is how my demons corner me
break me down then eat me alive
i'm alone, not lonely
put a positive spin on it
i'm independent
i don't feel abandoned
i'm good by myself
i'm not lonely, i'm just alone you see?
i do things myself because i'm independent
not because i have no one to ask for help.
i can do it better by myself, either way
i'm not afraid to ask for help
i can handle the rejection or the disappointment
of failed promises that they couldn't keep
because no one actually takes the time of day to come through
no one understands
that sometimes i'm only holding on by a thread
misunderstood and abandoned
no one even knows me anymore
the bonds broken
we're at the ends of two different spectrum
i see you
you see me
parallel but we'll never cross
i keep to myself
because sometimes my light seems to almost go out
and i don't think anyone can handle that
i cling on to the fading light so desperately
i'm trying to protect my last bit of sanity
i don't know how i'd be
if let it all go
completely welcome the darkness.
i'm not abandoned
i'm trying to reassure myself
we just all have our own issues
i can take care of myself
i'm trying to reassure myself
it's not working as well as it used to
no suicidal shit
but sometimes i really just don't want to be here.
