Beneath Your Beautiful

PORTRAIT OF A GIRL

Damn
What the hell Jayden.?  I can't be. She hates me. And i hate her too. Yes that's it. I hate her so much.

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I woke up with a massive  headache and a hand sprawled on my chest. I moved, so I could get a clean escape but she woke up.
"Leaving so soon baby?"
"Um yeah, I've got things to. Let me just go okay" i answered hastily.
"I had fun last night. I knew you'd come to my party." She said half asleep.
"Ugh" i sighed " i don't wanna do this today okay lex?. Now get the fuck off me. I'm leaving" i said with  no emotion in my voice. I got up and left.. there were a few people in her living room.  I walked past them and hopped in my car. Drove home. Took a shower and drove to school. My head was still pounding. So I walked into Mrs Anderson's class and asked if she had some Advil. Weirdly she had some in her purse. I swallowed 3 in one go, and walked to go meet my friends by the lockers.
Only Chris showed up, Conner i assume was still hung over.
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The lunch bell rang, Chris and i sauntered over to the cafeteria being the coolest guys in the whole school, almost everyone had their eyes on us. Besides one. Hayley wasn't in the cafeteria,I wonder where she is.
Alexa strutted her way to us, and sat on my laps. Almost straddling me, she kissed me. I didn't kiss back though. I wasn't in the mood.
I asked her to get off my legs, she did as I said and got off.
"Soooooo" Chris said, trying his best to assist in my situation."dude I wanna go show you something. Come on." Damn i love this guy.
"Sure let's go right away." I said sounding so happy.
We walked out of the cafeteria and i bumped into someone. Luckily I caught her before she fell. Her hands around my shoulders, mine around her waist. I swear this feels so right. Hayley looked  me straight in the eyes. They were hazel. They were beautiful, my eyes dropped down to her lips. They were full, I swear I almost kissed them when a hand grabbed my shoulder, it was that idiot. Brandon.
"Stay the fuck away from my girl Cameron."  He shouted
I looked at him, I swear I felt my heart break. I glanced at Hayley. A look of remorse was on her face. I knew my eyes were full of hurt. I quickly turned and looked at Brandon.  About to punch him, Chris held me back.
"Dude chill. "
"Hayley let's get the fuck away from this loser who pretends to be everything he's not." Brandon said coldly.
He was right. I was pretending to be everything I'm not. I lost my mother at fuckin 12 cause she didn't want me. Damn. I'm such a mess. Hayley wouldn't want to know this fucked up side of me. I hate myself, I hate my mom.
" dude talk to me" Chris said
"There's nothing to talk about. She hates me." I answered.. I've never felt like this before. Like I'm trying to scream. God, I will kill Brandon.
"Let's just go get Conner man." I said begrudgingly
"Jayden,  I don't think she hates you" Chris said sounding so sure about it. I wanted to scream again.i don't fuckin deserve her. She's too beautiful,  she's too pure.
"Hey guys." I hadn't even realised we'd already picked up Conner and we were driving to my house.
"Beer?" Chris called out from the kitchen... "bring whisky the whole damn cooler man" we all laughed at my comment,  I grabbed 3 beers and saved them for myself.  We played music played football.  It was fun, of course, they had to leave. I wandered back into my empty house. Walked to the painting room and brushed again. This time I knew who I was painting.  I knew there'd be an art project for the final term. So this would be it. I stepped back, although it wasn't finished, it wasn't going to be nearly as beautiful as she is. 
"Hey baby" Alexa's voice sounded from the other side..
"Come over "
"Should i bri-"
"Now" i couldn't care less what the fuck she brings. I want Hayley. Damn. Is this what love feels like.

Guess who I bumped into bro

A text came in from Conner... who the hell could it be. We didn't have any beef with anyone this year.

Yeah who is it.

Hayley Anderson! !!!

Where tf are you guys

I don't think you should come, let me talk to her okay. Figure her out.

Sure.
I only said that cause Alexa was coming. At least she'd get my mind off Hayley.