Beneath Your Beautiful

LIES, LIES, LIES

After that kiss we shared a few hours ago, damn i felt untouchable. I was going to ask her out on a date because I knew aunt Grace wouldn't be here for another month. As we pulled up to Hayleys neighbourhood, she glanced at me, and smiled. She fuckin smiled at me. I entered the house house right after her.
"Welcome Jayden,  you decided to come into my humble abode" she half bowed and we all laughed. They are nice. And i like them.
"So I'm going to my room since I don't paint, and I'll leave you two weirdos to paint" Hayley exclaimed and ran down the hallway to where I assumed would be her room.
              
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I was on my way home, and Bethany called me, i answered since traffic was slow.
"Does Christian have a girlfriend " she didn't even say hi.
"Hi Beth how are you this evening, " i said sounding very cocky.
"Just answer" she laughed
" no he is very single" i reassured her. That's when it occurred that I didn't break up with Alexa. Shit. If i do it over text she won't take me seriously, so I made a mental note to do it tomorrow.
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So I get in the gate just as another car pulled up in my driveway, damn, she was supposed to be her next month. It's my mom's older sister. Aunty Grace. I don't hate her or anything but having people over will be akward with her here. I begrudgingly entered the house and i found her in the kitchen, drinking wine.
"Jayden " she beamed up, hugging me
"Aunty Grace, what are you doing here" i hugged her back.
"Well our business meeting was concluded very early so I'm here to stay" she smiled at me. One thing I hated about Aunt Grace,  each time she was here she, she'd have a different boyfriend. Maybe someone she met from work or something, but she always had a different boyfriend. Sometimes I'd be her 'charity case' i hated it. She'd look better to her boyfriends and I'd just look hopeless.
"Hey aunty i have a long day tomorrow so please excuse me I'm going to sleep" i said rubbing my eyes.
"You know," she sighed, " Lauren would have wanted me to take care of you, all I've done these past 5 years is leave you here all alone doing God knows what," she looked at me apologetically, and i snapped,
"Oh fuck off. I don't want people treating me like charity cases okay. I'm fine, don't bring mom into this, if you really wanted to treat me like a son you should've been here when she killed herself okay.?" I yelled at her, causing her to flinch
"Why are you so angry?" She asked me softly. "Listen it's okay to be sad, it looks like you've been bottling all these emotions up, listen jayden, I'm here, talk to-"
"Don't give me any of that therapist shit okay. Don't.  I'm fine and i don't need another person telling me how to handle my own emotions" i snapped at her. I turned on my heel and stormed away. I hated people treating me like that. I had to change schools five years ago because I hated it when I walked down the school hallways and people look at me remorsfully,. People were forced to be nice to me just because my selfish bitch of a mother killed herself. I got to bed and i knew what I was about to do was wrong. I needed to forget. I called Alexa to come over. I was going to meet her in my car. As soon as it was over. I'd dump her. As evil as it is, I had to do it. She texted me thirty minutes later that she was outside and i went over to her and she started kissing me. I pushed her off.
"Ugh, listen,  it's over okay?  Don't look at me, don't call me, don't call my friends, don't call anyone i know. Okay" i stared at her intensely.
"What the hell, are you fuckin kidding me? " Alexa exclaimed.
I didn't even give her a second look " Fuck off or I'll turn on the sprinklers" and with that, I walked back into the house. Up to my room. I couldn't really fall asleep because I was going to dream of my mom again. The night i found her.
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I had to take sleeping pills last night so I could at least fall asleep, and i did, so yeah. The guys and i were meeting at Conner's place so we could play some 'Call of duty' it was a strictly bro's no hoe's night. So I prepared and i was about to leave when i saw a man standing with Aunty Graces in the kitchen.
"Oh Jayden, come here" here we go, charity case again.
"This is my nephew, he lives in this house" she smiled at me, then back at the guy. He looked oddly familiar though,  I just brushed it off and grabbed a smoothie in the fridge, drank it, and told my aunt i was going to be back by 6pm. And with that I left. The drive there was fairly quick.  No traffic in sight at all.
"Hey bro" i said to Chris as I man-hugged him.  He did the same, and Conner emerged with a big bowl of food as he man hugged us and said hi.
We played the game and we had fun. Until Conner had to leave, in the middle of the game, to go God knows where. "Dude I promise I'll be back in ten minutes. "
"Why can't it wait man. " i asked because he'd been ditching us to meet up with his new romance partner.
"Yeah man where are you going" Chris finally looked up from the screen to help me with Conner. "Oh C'mon guys I have to get going." He begged us.
"You're not going until you tell us who you're meeting. " we stared at him. Chris ran and locked the door so he wouldn't run away. Conner was getting quite agitated now.
"I'm gay okay" he shouted. What, what the fuck.
"You're what?" Chris and i asked simultaneously.
"I'm gay. Okay. I'm meeting my boyfriend he wants to give me something"  he sighed.
"Duuuuude, why didn't you tell us" i smiled at him. We all laughed and pulled him into a bro hug.
"You have no idea how much pressure it is being gay in the football team," he sighed happily. He was relieved and i was happy that he found love. It was good, I wouldn't judge him.
"Oh now I can stop pretending to be all manly and  stuff" we laughed at that.