Beneath Your Beautiful

ISSUES

-Jayden

It's been three hours. She hasn't woken up yet. If she died, i think I'd die too. It couldn't have been aunt Grace that made her overdose on xanax. Something else must have happened.

She'd have to be awake to tell me. Otherwise, I'd never know. I watch the way her chest falls up and down as she takes slow breaths, the way her eyelashes aren't moving, her lips a bit chapped, her skin isn't glow the way it used to. It's pale. Fuck i miss her.

I want her to wake up. I want to hold her in my arms. She'd be safe there. Nothing would harm her, i don't know what it is about her that makes me so soft. I'm fuckin Jayden Cameron I'm not some soft wuss who girls just walk all over. I'm a menace. To her though, I'm the opposite.

It's been 5 days now. I barely moved from the chair that's opposite her bed. I watch her sleep, after she drank half the bottle of xanax and  alcohol,  she passed out. Right now, she's in a coma like state. If Chelsea hadn't found her she'd be gone. I hate to think about it, but it's true. She was reckless with her life. I don't know why she'd do such a thing.

My thoughts are interrupted by the slight creak of the door, illuminating the room. I glance upwards, and i see Chelsea's familiar figure standing by the door,  she was in the same state i was. Barely ate, barely talked, just stayed silent. Waiting for  Hayley to open her eyes and tell us why.

"Hey" she says with a small smile.

"Hi Chelsea " i answered,  my voice sounding husky as I'd been extremely tired.

"I couldn't have guessed, that you'd grow fond of my daughter Mr Cameron " she smiled, a warm smile.

"Yeah well, she's a good soul" i say standing. Asking her to occupy the seat i was. She sits, and stares at her daughter.

" she's my baby" she says tears forming in her eyes. Why people have a habit of crying in my presence, i have no idea.

"Chelsea, this really isn't your fault." I say,  mastering a smooth voice.

"You're right." She sniffles and looks up at me, smiling.

As soon as she stands up, i notice something from the corner of my eye. I see Hayley's hand move . Was she waking up? I turn towards her, and Chelsea mimics my movement.  Within three minutes of us waiting, she opens her eyes. Those beautiful eyes. She smiles at me, without thinking, i kiss her. Gladly, she hasn't forgotten how to kiss.

"Ahem" a voice says from behind us. Chelsea looks at us, tears in her eyes.

"She's awake" she shouts, loud enough for everyone outside to hear

"Oh, Hayley,  my baby, I'm so glad you're here. " Chelsea sobs. She must've gone through a lot in the past 5 days. She looked terrible. 

"Oh my God" a voice sounds from behind me. As Christian and Bethany walk in. Beth immediately hugs her friend. 

"I'm sorry guys" Hayley says. It was barely audible.

"Shhh, it's okay honey" Beth and Chelsea say. I wasn't going to let it slide that easily though. I was going to ask her. Not now. Eventually.

The doctor walked in, and asked us to excuse him, while he checks on Hayley. Chris and I went to get some food for everyone. When we came back, everyone was better than before, they were all smiling, having conversations with each other. It was nice.

-Hayley

"Just one more day and you're good to go Hayley " the doctors smile at me. I didn't want to go back home though, Brandon hit me. I didn't want to have that conversation with Beth, she knew me better, she knew that I'd never ever go back to drugs. I did. I had some explaining do. As soon as the doctor walks out. Bethany walks in, as if one cue.

"Hey "  i smile at her. She sits on my bed.

"I missed you bitch" she playfully smacks my arm. I wish I was that carefree. Bethany is always happy, at least, that's what she wants everyone to believe.

"I missed you too" we hugged.

"Okay, now let's have this conversation. Why did you do it Hayley. You promised you wouldn't do it. Yet here we are." She said, tears filling her eyes.  Three minutes ago she was smiling ear to ear, now she's crying. Damn.

"We should talk about this later" i feel so ashamed of myself. I should've beaten Brandon's ass, but I ran. Just like the fuckin coward i am. I tried to run from my mom, my feelings for Jayden, and Brandon. I guess life had other things in mind.

"No, we're doing this now" she's never forced me to talk about anything before. She's always been the gentle, I've - got- your - back type of friend.

So I told her everything. From the moment I cried in Jayden's arms, to the moment he liked me clean. To the moment I ran, to the moment Brandon and i hit each other, to the moment I drank xanax. She looked at me wide eyed.

"That fucker hit you?" She said sounding so mad. "Hayley you have to do something about him you know that right?" I looked at her, wondering what she had in mind.

"Like what Beth" i questioned. As if one cue, Jayden walked in. My heart literally skipped a beat. He looked terrible, he had eye bags, his shoulders were a bit slouched over from his usual appearance. That is the boy im falling for.

"Jayden, we need to talk about something. " Beth said. Holy Shit.  She was going to tell him, fuck, he's literally going to tear the whole school to rubbel.

"Um no" i yelled, they both ignored me. And Bethany told the whole story to him. Well only from the part where I ran away. They both turned to me, and i burst into tears.

"I feel so ashamed of myself. I shouldn't have run away, I'm a coward. I drank that shit to escape. I didn't want to wake up. " i cried. I found myself crying in Jayden's warm chest. That's when i knew. That this boy, who annoyed the shit out of me at first. I loved him. He was there for me, he never judged me. He took care of me, and accepted me as I am. A tall handsome boy like him should be with a super model of some sort, but he chose me. As shabby and as weird as I am. He loved me like that.

"I love you " i whispered to him. He kissed me. It was all I needed.

"You're strong baby. You can go through this. Just don't give up." He said to me. I listened to him. I wasn't going to give up. Not now, not ever.

As long as I have him by my side.

Authors note♡♡

▪ omg this chapter was so hard. Like should i do this, should i not. Like wow.
▪well i think we're all  happy with this chapter.

☆Issues by Julia Michaels inspired this chapter ♡♡♡♡