i'm still your sunwoo | fanfic

𝟷𝟽, 𝚖𝚘𝚟𝚒𝚎 𝚍𝚊𝚝𝚎.

(𝐘/𝐍)'𝐬 𝐏𝐎𝐕

" Ya, where are you now? Are you at home right now? I can pick you up at your house and take you to the cinema together if you want to, " Sunwoo is on the phone asking me my whereabout. Shoot.. the movie. I totally forgot about it. " No, no, I'm actually.. already on my way to the mall! So what if we just meet each other there? " I walked from the hospital lobby to the nearest subway station. I'm not sure if I should take the cab or not because I already did this morning, so I guess that's enough of spending.

The subway is filled with a lot of people than usual. I guess it's because it's the peak hour people get off from work, hence why this carriage is so pack. " Oh, well okay then, I guess I meet you there! " Sunwoo ended the phone call, and he probably is on his way there since I can hear engine starting. It would take another two stops for me to walk to the mall, so standing is not really a problem here.

But a problem arise when people are pressed against each other since everyone wants to squeeze in and get back home early. Honestly I'm beginning to feel slightly dizzy and my breaths are short. I try to grab on one of the handgrip before I might tumble onto someone. From the hospital check up today, Dr Yoon has prescribed me with way more medications I've ever seen my entire life. Is it because of the theophylline I took just now? I guess that's why I'm getting these side effects- it's kicking in..

*We have now arrived at Samseong Jugang- Samseong Jugang. Please take the exit at your left, thank you* That's it, that's my station. I should get off now before I cause a scene. Once I get out of the station, reaching for fresh air, I leaned my head against an advertisement board. I grabbed my chest, trying to calm myself by practicing deep breaths. " You got this, (Y/N).. " I counted 1 until 10 in my head, just so I could stick with the rhythm.

Suddenly, I feel a finger poking my shoulder. " (Y/N), you okay? " Sunwoo's raising his eyebrows when I turned around. How did he find me here? " Oh, Sunwoo! Yeah, yeah I'm fine, I'm just- casually waiting for you! How did you get here so quick? " I changed the topic while we're heading inside the mall, hoping he would not feel suspicious. " I borrowed one of our staff's car, do you know I already own a license? Now I can drive you anywhere you want~ " I can hear Sunwoo sheepishly smile behind his mask.

" Ommo, since when did our Sunwoo get this big? I'm so proud of you " playfully, I mess his hair with my hands. But it stopped shortly because how foolish I am to do that to him?! Before I was able to put away my hand, he grab my arm, putting it back on top of his head. " Pat me. I like it. " he stood there, just looking at me with his warm eyes. I can feel my cheeks blush so hard, that my brain started to rummage through some ideas and change the topic. " I'll pay for the popcorns; tickets on you! " I elbowed him and grinned, then running off to the popcorn counter. 

Sunwoo decided for us to watch a horror release called Cadaver. Our seats are perfectly at the middle row, getting us the best view in the hall. " Ya (Y/N), are you still afraid of ghost like you use to? " Sunwoo whispers while chuckling in my ears. I shoot him a sharp glance. " That was before, I'm a grown woman now no ghost can scare me pfft, " I jokingly flip my hair and sounded so proud. But the truth is? I still get scared of it. Am I lying to Sunwoo? Yes, because.. I'm not losing to this boy I've known my entire childhood. I know I sound so childish haha.

This movie only has begin for 45 minutes and we got a long way to go; but it's horribly disturbing. The graphics displayed almost seem so real that I might end up puking in my seat. I thought I am handling this well, but then I can feel the trembles in my hand coming. It feels like blood is draining away from fingertips, slowly to my fingers, palms and my lower arm. I bring my hands closer to my mouth and keep blowing it so it feels the tiniest bit of warmth. 

" Cold? " Sunwoo turned at me, looking at my hands then back to my face. I shake my head, denying so that I'm not disturbing Sunwoo since he looks so invested in the story line. Without a doubt, he pulled my hand right into his hoodie's pocket and hold it still. My eyes feel like it's popping out of shook, and I'm just there sitting next to him, staring blankly. Why does this feel so good? Can this stay the way it is? Is there a pause button for me to stop the time?

" Stop staring at me. I don't know what's scarier, the movie or you, " he jokingly tease me, that made me smiled. My heart feels so much better, almost as if today was never a bad news. 

𝐒𝐮𝐧𝐰𝐨𝐨'𝐬 𝐏𝐎𝐕

I can't stop but notice (Y/N) keeps on warming her hands up. Is the air-conditioner too cold? But she's wearing quite thick clothes, I can say.. She shake her head when I ask her if she's cold or not. Don't get me wrong.. but I've always wanted to hold her hands; it's just that I don't know where to start. Without having second thoughts, I grab her hand and hold it in my pocket. Wow.. I never knew her hand was this- soft. And cold. So, so cold. I can feel (Y/N) staring at me, judging my act now, but what do I care?

I'm trying to be here for her now. I'm trying to make up for the time she was left all by herself. It's just that my heart is telling me, something is going to turn out wrong this time... and no matter how unease the feelings are, be it with her. I'm not leaving. 

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