TROUBLE

FORTY SIX

Miles POV

"Miles what happened?!"

"Stop punching him, you'll kill him!!"

"Get him and the other bastards alive and into the cells!!"

"Miles help you wife, she needs you!!"

"Get her to the car, she is losing too much blood!!"

"We need to get to the clinic ASAP!!"

"CECILIA WAKE UP NOW! KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN BAMBINA!!"

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Everything that happened in that hotel room was in my mind, on repeat. It refused to leave.

I have never felt helpless, well, I haven't felt helpless since my mother's passing and Eliana was basically raising Gray and i. I couldn't do anything for Cece, I froze. In a time when you are supposed to act, to save her.

I fucking froze.

I stared helplessly at her body, before acting. But then my own rage got the better of me. I turned my back on my wife, my love, just to beat the absolute shit out of King. I guess I got my karma though.

I walked away with quite the shiner around my left eye, and possibly another broken nose. Camden didn't like the fact I left her there bleeding on the floor so he beat the shit out of me.

Again.

I did deserve it. Both times.

I basically left my wife to die.

When we got to Adriano's clinic I refused to leave her side. Her face was paling, her skin was ice cold. I wasn't ready to lose her, not today, not ever. I wanted to stand beside her in surgery, whisper in her ear telling her I loved her.

Asking for her forgiveness.

I could still feel her touch on my leg as she fell to the floor, A reminder that I fucked up. I remember her eyes staring up at me as she choked on her own blood.

That look on her face will never leave my mind, it was forever ingrained in my memory forever. A constant reminder of the absolute hell of this world. That one minute you are completely and truly in love, acting on it in a fucking elevator. The next minute, you have guns drawn and living you worst nightmare.

I had been sitting in a chair, outside Cecilia's room at the Saldaro house, after her semi successful surgery they thought it was best to move her to her room, somewhere she is familiar with or comfortable with.

She crashed twice in the operating room.

Her heart stopped beating twice. At first her body was rejecting the blood from the transfusion, so she just kept losing the blood. They weren't expecting her to reject the blood- it was the same type as her own, as well as from her own twin. They then discovered that the knife had penetrated her large intestine, causing it to tear. I don't know all of the details but she went into cardiac arrest.

It got so bad that Adriano had to leave the room, how could he stay in room where he was so close to losing his sister, he ended up leaving the rest of the procedure in Morgan's hands. After that the rest of the operation was thankfully successful and unproblematic.

"Dude go and shower, you are covered in blood." My head snaps to my best friend who was leaning against the bedroom door. Behind him stood Rocco.

"I can't leave her side."

"Miles she is still going to be there when you get back. You will be gone for like 10 minutes." Rocco chips in, I roll my eyes taking Cece's hand into my own, it was still so cold. I wanted her to be warm before he wakes up.