just friends?

chapter 2

-tw talk about self harm-

about 3 hours later i wake up to the shower going
me: "lin's you in there"
lindsey: "ya why" she yells over the shower
me: "i gotta pee open the door"
lindsay; "ok just wait a second after i unlock it" i hear her step out of the shower and unlock the door, i wait a second then walk in,
me: "how did you sleep" i say pulling it out to pee
lindsey: "good i love the warmth of your arms" i go pee but before i put it back in my pants "holy shit you would by a XL condom your dick is  huge" i look at her and she's starting at it.
me: "i know i already told you i would be and sorry i gotta put the show away" i give her a frown and put it away but before i walk out she runes out of the shower pulls me down to her hight witch is like 5 foot and i'm 6'4 and gives me a kiss i look down at her and admire her features but then i look back down at all of her cuts she didn't have those when we were dating before "princess did you start cutting yourself because we broke up" she looks down and nods her head and i felt myself break i did that to her. i made her do this because i liked moon i did this to her
lindsey: "hawk i'm sorry i-"
me: "no don't say sorry i did this to you i broke you all for what so moon could be a cheating bitch i'm so in love with you lindsey it's not ok at this point i need help or somthing seeing you so that to yourself only makes me wanna cry and be dead i did this" i start to cry and i'm not one that cry's i don't cry but this girl is my soft spot she gets to me when no one else can and i don't know why.
lindsey: "hawk i love you more then anything in the world your the reason i'm not putting a blade to my skin right now your the reason i'm not dead i would have been 6 feet under right now but i am standing here because of you" a tear roles down her am face and i wipe it off
me: "princess you are the reason i am still here to" i bent down to kiss her but then my phone rang and it was miguel face timing me before i could answer lin's pulls my phone out of my hands runs down stairs and answers it
miguel: "oh yes lin's, why does it look like you have been crying and naked" he laughs "oh wait did i interrupt something happening with hawk" he gave her the biggest smirk
lindsey: "no you didn't and i'm crying because he found out about the cuts, and i'm naked because i just got out of the shower" she sayer and laughed at the last part wait he knew about them
hawk: "miguel come over right now and lin's i love the sight don't get me wrong but go out cloths on" she smirks at me "but serious miguel come over right now i don't care if you don't want to"
miguel: "alright bet i will be over in 15" he hangs up and i run upstairs to lins only in a bra and a thong
lindsey: "hawk ima steal this" she turns around and she's holding my favorite sweatshirt
me: "hell no" i try to take it from her but she puts it on and it's to cute to take off, here's a little back story of how we met, i was walking down the hallway and i see kyler with her i didn't know her at the time but it was obvious that she did not want him to touch her because she was crying and he was touching her everywhere like everywhere i pushed him away and made her feel ok again then walk away i see her again in lunch getting picked on by kyler and he was calling her fat and ugly first of she is no where close to being fat she has mussel and she's skinny like really skinny and she is the most beautiful girl i have ever seen i walk up to them get into a fight with kyler i win then me and her exchanged phone numbers and snaps then went our separate ways and we have been extremely close ever sense end of back story
i get a pair of my shorts and hand them to her because my pants would have been way to big like they would have been over a foot past her feat but my shorts stop at her mid shins
lindsey: "hawk i love you" she pulls my chain and our lips crash together but my front door swings open
miguel: "LOVE BIRDS IM HERE" lindsey and i go down stairs she hugs him and we do out little hand shake "i laughed so hard when she answered the phone and was backed i was like what are they doing huh" we all laugh
me: "so i found out that she cuts herself yesterday when did you find out" she looks at the floor
miguel: "i found out the day after you two broke up because i walked in on her doing it, i saw the blood dripping from her legs and she was crying so hard" i would have cryer my eyes out all night if i saw what miguel did i don't know what i would have done that's heartbreaking
me: "well let's shut up about this and get good and watch movies all day" she looked up at me and smiled witch made me melt inside i love her so much
lindsey&miguel: "i call dibs" they run out to the car like a whole bunch of 8 year olds and lin's gets on and locks the doors
me: "princess unlock the door pleaseeee" she unlocks it and i give a haha look to Miguel
at the store lindsey gets in the cart and i push her around the store and she grabbed what she wanted. at the end after we paid i helped her out of the cart and she kissed me and we started to slightly make out but
miguel: "ewwwww get a room" mine and lin's lips parted and she got in the backseat because miguel is in the front and we drove back to my house. she ran up to me and jumped on my back to make miguel uncomfortable because he was being annoying "so y'all are telling my you aren't together but you kiss all the time and she
was just on your back she answers e phone naked and the picture that your mom took and posted on insta" he gave us a disapproval look and laughed
me: "that's what we are saying i mean i would scream from the rooftops that she is my girlfriend but she's not, i wish though" she looks at me i bend down and kiss her
miguel: "then why is she not your girlfriend"
me: "she does not want to go threw another huge heartbreak but she might not be my girlfriend but she's still mine no one else can have her" she walks over to me and hugs me
lindsey: "hell ya i am" i laugh and kiss her on the head
miguel: "what are you going to do if somone kisses her or if she kisses someone else i mean you two are not together"
me: "i don't give a shit if we are not together i will kill them she's mine everything about her is mine"
lindsey: "ya and same goes to you mister if i see you kiss anyone else i will kill the both of you" i like that she is protective over me it means she actually cares
me: "i don't see myself kissing any other people any time soon if not that then never" i pick her up and kiss her
miguel: break it up love birds
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a.n: thank you so much for reading love you all
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