just friends?

chapter 7

-lindsey's pov-
⚠️talk about eating disorders and cutting and suicidal attempts⚠️ i was crying my eyes out then i heard someone knock on the door
"lins if your still alive please open the door please" i get up and open the door "oh my god" he hugs me and starts crying
"i'm sorry" i hug him back
"no don't say sorry what did you do when you came home" i started to cry
"i screamed punched holes in the wall i swallowed a bunch of pills and cut myself a lot"
"well let's get you to a hospital"
"no you should go" i push him out the door and close and lock it i collapse on the floor crying then i black out
-miguel's pov-
it's been months sense i have talked to lins and it's hawks fault he's now with moon again and dosent seem like he noticed that she's gone
"hawk what the hell man"
"what" he has his arm around moon
"remember lins ya she's been in her fucking house not letting anyone in who fucking knows if she's still alive she loved you and you fucking cheated on her with this slut"
"bro don't fucking call her a slut and i guess that sucks i didn't even notice she was gone" he laughs
"hawk what the hell have you turned into you used to be crazy about lindsey now one makeout session with moon and she's back in your arms"
"i will go to lindsey's house later chill"
"babe what the hell why are you going to go to her house"
"because i love her i love her so fucking much and i pulled dumb shit with you i don't fucking care about you i love lindsay so go find somone else to sleep around on moon im done"
"hawk if you really love her go get her" then he runs out of the school ad drives away
-hawks pov-
i left the school and drove straight to lindsey's houses
"OPEN THE DOOR" i yell but no answer so i kick it really hard and it opens i run up to her room and i open the door and she's curled up in her bed with bags under her eyes and it's obvious she hasn't eaten anything and she's wearing the same thing she wore to the party and her wrists have scared on them "lindsey" she does not move
"how did you get in my house" her voice is really shaky and she just stairs at a wall
"i kicked open the door, you have to take care of yourself" her eyes become tears
"get out"
"no i won't leave you again"
"GET OUT" she try's to stand up but falls
"are you ok"
"i'm fine just get out of my house hawk" she starts crying really hard i run over to her and hug her
-lindsey's pov-
i only eat a apple a day to keep me going and i drink water from my huge ass water bottle a couple times a day other then that i don't move i don't talk but hawk came into my house today i told him to leave but he refused to leave me alone again
"GET OUT" i try to stand up but i fall
" are you ok"
"im fine just get out of my house hawk" i start crying because i looked at him i haven't looked at his face yet he hugs me and i hug him back then i collapsed on the the floor and he collapsed with me and put his hands threw my hair
"no your not you haven't eaten in god knows how long and you are hurting yourself that's not ok that's why you moved in with me"
"then you cheated on me hawk i can't live with that type of person"
"i'm not a cheater i get it i kissed moon but i'm in love with you"
"well someone who loves me would never do that"
"i'm in love with you i'm bad at showing it i know but you are the love of my life please lindsey we never officially broke up"
"i love you hawk i really do but if you loved me you would never kissed moon"
"i do love you i love you more then anything"
"then show it"
"come on we are going to my house"
"what why"
"because we are going to get you cleaned up and get some food in that stomach of yours and watch movies and sleep and get that phone of yours charged" he kisses my head and takes my hand and we walk out of my house and drive to his house "ok we're here also miguel is here" i smile and we walk in
"oh my god lins" miguel hugs me really tightly and picks me up "please never do that again"
"i won't miggy" i hug him back
"ok well let's get you in the shower i will give you my cloths and then we will go out to eat" hawk hugs me and we walk to the bathroom and he gives me cloths and a towel
-hawks pov-
i walk back downstairs and miguel gives me the look
"what"
"you got her to come out of her house and come here you really mean a lot to her and she means a lot to you"
"of course she means a lot to me i have known her for 6 years and i have been in love with her for all of them i made a really fucking stupid mistake and i hate myself for it i hurt her and i hate myself for it"
"eww your a simp"
"shut the fuck up and only for her i could care less about any other girl she's the one i want"
"what about moon"
"she's just a fucking slut that i used for sex"
"was it better then lindsays"
"fuck no lindsey knows what she's doing and knows all my spots her head game is amazing and just her sex is fucking amazing moons is terrible she doesn't know what she's doing" he laughs then lindsey walks into the living room she so cute in my clothing ughhh i can't help but fall for this girl more and more everyday
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an: i hope you like this chapter thank you for reading
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