just friends?

chapter 8

-lindsay's pov-
we are watching movies and hawk puts his arm around me pulling me towards him
"i love you lins" i smile
"i love you too hawk but this doesn't mean we are back together you hurt me eli, after you promised you wouldn't" my eyes teared up
"i know lins and i'm so fucking sorry i'm in love with you and i hate myself for hurting you" he hugs me rlly tightly "here eat this" he hands my a pack of sour patch kids he always knew these are my favorites
"thank you eli" i look him in the eyes and pull the collar of his shirt and our lips collide together after a couple minutes we are full on making out 
"HEY i'm still here guys"
"oh my god miguel" i laugh
"ya ya i guess i'm that easy to forget, we'll we have school tomorrow so i'm out see you two tomorrow if y'all go peace out" he leaves, me and hawk continue watching the movie then one thing leads to another and he's on top of me we are  making out and he's fingering me reminder we are still on the couch in the living room
"fuck eli" his fingers speed up as he adds another one "mmmmmm"
"you like that huh" he kisses me and i could tell by the way he looked at me his eyes are full of lust i knew what he wanted
"eli maybe we shouldn't be doing this on the couch when your moms home" he laughs and pulls my pants up he picks me up and carry's me to his room
"better" he smirks and gets on top of my again
"yea that's better" he chuckles before continuing what he was doing on the couch "fuck hawk"
"you like that huh" he sucks on my neck leaving me with hickeys
-time skip to morning-
we wake up and i'm on top of him and we are cuddling
"good morning princess" he raps his arms around my waist
"good morning close your eyes im naked"
"after last night you gunna tell me to close my eyes" he chuckled and turned around so his face is barrier in his pillow
"thank you" i go in the bathroom and just stair at my thighs and wrists and regret it all i remember that night just being in so much mental pain just digging that blade into my skin not thinking about anything other then myself i didn't realize how loud or that i was even crying but it was loud enough for hawk to run over to the bathroom
"Lindsay open the door"
"hawk i'm naked"
"ok and i have seen and have pictures of you naked what's the point of even saying that you have sent me everything nothing i haven't seen before so come on babe let me in please" i open the door and he hugs me
"i'm sorry" he lets go of my and looks me in the eyes
"there is nothing to be sorry about"
"i liked last night"
"ya cuz it was mostly focused on you i fingered and ate you out alonge with railed tf out of you you had tears coming out of your eyes you moaned you screamed you orgasmed and you rode and sucked my dick"
"ya and you were squeezing the bed sheets moaning my name squirming tellibg me your dick was all mine screaming fuck" he grabs my neck and kisses my rlly hard
"Shut the fuck up before i make you" he looks into my eyes
"oh ya and what you going to do if i don't" he puts his hand around my neck throwing me on his bed, when he got on top of me and looked down to see i was still naked i felt something hard hit my leg
"i didn't realize you were still naked"
"what's wrong you don't like it" i only said that to make him horny rlly fucking horny
"come on babe you know i like it you know if i could i would be in you rn" and it's working
"ya but we have school" i smirk and get up to get changed
"bruh you made me hard as fuck" i laugh
"good" i walk over to him and kiss him
"how is that good" he groans and lays down, is laugh and continue getting ready and soon after he's done jerking off her joins me
-time skip to 4th period-
-hawks pov-
"bruh you and lins were making out when i was sitting right next to you i couldn't hear the moving over all the kissing"
"ya and after you left i fingered, ate out, and fucking the living she outa her" we laugh
"eli, miguel is there somthing you would like to share with the class" we look at each other and laugh
"how i fucked the living shit outa-"
"ELI MOSCOWITZ YOU GO THE THE PRINCIPALS RIGHT NOW THAT WAS HIGHLY INAPPROPRIATE" mrs. johnson yells me and miguel laugh and skip the rest of the period not going to the office
-time skip to after school-
"hey lins" she turns around and i kiss her grabbing her ass
"hawk we talked about this we are not in a relationship" my heart broke
"then what was last night"
"it was impassive sex"
"i don't understand you at all, you kiss me you hug me you tell me you love me we have sec you give me head you let me do all this stuff to you and then here you are saying it meant nothing, fuck you lindsay" i walk away wanting to punch somthing or someone
-lindsay's pov-
fuck fuck fuck i didn't mean that why the hell did i say it
"ELI" he turns around and his eyes are all watery i run up to him and hug him "eli i love you more then anything" he starts to cry
"lins you need to act like it then, so does that mean you regret last night" he looks me in the eyes
"eli i loved last night" he starts to calm down
"come on we are going home then i have to go to cobra kai"
"i though you didn't have practice today"
"i don't i just need to beat the living shit out of a punching bag"
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an: thank you for reading this chapter
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