🌹𝓕𝓘𝓝𝓓 𝓜𝓔🌹. JJK.

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i hop onto the shower to calm myself , it has been a really hectic morning.

i put tv for bomi so she doesn't notice that   i was away, she surprisingly sits quietly whilst watching tv.

the water run down my skin, my body instantly relaxing as my mind wavered with thoughts.

i look into the fogged reflection of myself in the mirror, why is this all happening. who is behind all this. why is all this misfortune upon me.

i reminisce the dream i had of when jimin and i were were younger and shuddered, he....feels so different, as if he was so far away.

why does he feel so different now, its unexplainable, it seems like i know nothing about him.

it's time to find closure if that's what he's trying to do, things definitely can't end like this.

i quickly wash up and hop out of the shower. Ill think about it later.

****

it is 7 pm and i got a text from jungkook.

i walk out of my apartment smiling to myself, today is my first date with jungkook.

i saw a black car pull up in front of me , the window slid down as a grinning jungkook came into view.

i sit in the passenger seat and look at him.he looks amazing.

"oh dear, am i underdressed", i chuckle to myself embarrassed.

"no..you look gorgeous", he grips the steering wheel flushed.

"..thanks", i smile, my face feeling hot.

we drove off as i stare at his hands on the gear, they look so veiny and beautiful.

i quickly glance away feeling embarrassed.

"where are we going", i look outside the window admiring the view.

"uh...you'll find out", i look at him to see his ears red, why is he so cute.

"alright, if you say so", i giggle .

***

we reach the mall as i glance around the area.

we walk in to see a huge crowd in the middle, seems like a fare?

i look to my side to see jungkook looking at the ground not moving, he seemed scared and uncomfortable?

"what's wrong", i ask quietly holding his hand.

"ahem..its just that ..i-", he loosened his collar as he looked around sweat dripping down his neck.

"sorry, i feel a bit stuffy", he breathes out tugging at his collar.

"its okay, stay close to me okay?", i grab his hand as he followed behind me.

we walk through, our hands tightly gripping each other tightly to not get lost in the crowd.

i feel a push behind me as i move forward, the grip in our hands slowly loosening.

my hand felt sweaty as i felt his hand loosening from me,i push through the crowd tightening my grip as hard as i can.

suddenly i felt the crowd clear behind me as jungkook comes to the side of me gripping my shoulder.

i check up on him to see his head hung low walking to whatever direction i was going. we reach the end as i took a deep breath.

" sorry, crowds just suffocate me", he smiled looking everywhere but me.

if he's looking somewhere else while talking , he was lying. it was one of the patterns i noticed in his behaviour.